DILIGENT .

Best thing i ever had. <3 ^ 

so yeah, last week was the last week with 2Diligent. I swear it was very heartwrecking to see a most bonded class i ever had. 

We might not be the best, we might not be the guai students, we might not be liked by alot teachers and people from other classes, but no doubt i can say that 2D is the best class i ever had. 

We didnt cried because we are planning a class bbq and thr's variety show so i guess there are still alot chances that we can meet. But still, i hugged dider oswaldo. i am so gna miss him like crazy. ): Kelvin too, Chanhong too, Ryan, Qinhong, Ivan, Weixiang, Yuankai, Ryuji, Ooswe, Huiyi, Jinelle, Shiying, Panghing AND OBVIOUSLY MY BISTOUT. damn it. why cannot four years same class straight. Though thrs quarrels and even fights sometimes, i guess they are what that made the class stronger, and even more bonded. I will miss all the jokes we cracked, the closeness in everyone, the smile on every face (: 

cant type anymore. verge of crying thinking about this.

Last week of school.

It's monday again. sucks. :/ 

School is left with a week. Thinking about that, my heart ache. Together with other 39 2D-ians, we made it through 2years. 2years of facing each other daily, all the fun we had, all the nonsensical things we did, we will never bound to forget it. 

Geez. Somethings happened in school, not intending to mention it. I just pray everything will be alright. We got our streaming form - eligible for everything except POA. yeap due to my suckish english, No doubt. :) i can only take amaths, and since many advised me to take amaths too, i shall just go with the " IN " thing, as mentioned by MRTANBOONYONG. TROLOLOL. a big thank to all seniors! :D 

ALL THE BEST TO SENIORS TAKING O' LEVELS TOMORROW! :) 

tmoro school and tuesday sure gna be BORED TO TEARS. we are going to be involved in our school's openhouse. No idea what we are suppose to do but just assemble right after morning assembly at music room. And there's a learning journey to be conducted on tuesday  but i dont think many of us can go. i wna go this learning journey ! if dont go 15$ go to school like fund to them, kuku lah :( there will be no school on wednesday, and thurs i think there is gna be another practise for MF VARIETY SHOW.. AGAIN. and friday school ends at 10am. i guess we gna spam alot photos as it's the last day of 2D. Maybe we gna plan a class bbq? BBQ enough! ;D haha. and hopefully we can have a class photo before everything ends this year. I will miss 2D, forever. 

A big confirm that i will be celebrating Halloween with my 6G babes. <3 Long time since i met them. I am so halloweencited !! Like, HALLUYAH. what should we dress as! Perhaps we are gna wear the same, have the same crazy hairstyles and spam photos like .. nobody's business! That will be superduper awesome! And monthsary again love! heehee, my dope. ;) 

i love twittah. it's just like my online diary, and everything i dont dare to tell someone i wrote it there. :D

eh you. why lie about having a girlfriend. just bloody admit to me you have one. bestfriends once, no need to do until this extent lah okay. you and her, k i dont judge. i wish you all the best. but seeing all the photos of you and her together, i just got so fedup. you knew we were distancing, yet you did not even try to fix it. MAN WHATS WRONG WITH YOU. dont i even stand a little place in your heart? urgh i dont think so also. fine. afterall, the person who changes the song in your ipod had changed. Instead of me it is her now. what shit is this. Laying in bed, remembering a conversation in my head, and imagining what i should’ve said instead. We could actually went further. I kept thinking whats wrong. But i guess all had been too late. You are now with a girl younger than you, and yet taller than you. geeez. whatever it is, goodluck my bestfriend. i will still miss all the conversations we had at late nights.  

i shouldnt be thinking of all these TROLOLOL. trolling. 

we should been perfect. HAHAH joke.

love. our third month is coming already. i know you are sad because of certain reasons but you dont wna say. its okay. i will do my part to cheer you up but promise me what you had promised. you broke my record, so lets continue. love. :)

Impossible.

Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks. 

i am dying from missing you, best friend.

life is boring without exams. hell yeah why am i so weird haha ! 
hence in short , 

• i am happy
• i am sad
• i am angry
• i am having fun
• i am missing you
• i took back all my results
• school is fun i guess
• i am anticipating towards shopping trips with besties
• i miss alot of my besties :( 
• i need to buck up on cca
• i believe in life and many other things now
• i love my mummy. <3
• DONT FORGET ME. 

October seems to be sailing pretty well for me. Hope it continues. 

BORING SUNDAY. MOST BORING SUNDAY EVER! :(

i had fun today, but just not in the mood to post about anything.


it sucks to be replaced easily. it sucks to feel so suckish. it sucks when none appreciated your initiatives. it sucks when nothing came back when you did something good. damn it. 

What happened to us.

urgh crystalchin i hate you. 

A VERY BIG ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE! - EOY IS OVER! :D 

wooooots. I guess sa2 was .. fine except for a few subjects like maths paper 2 and literature. k whatever i know my limits. ): but the fun of exams is always thr due to my girls! everyday after school we have some special events. might not be super special but special cos everyone is thr. <3 and maths paper1 ended at 9am today. we went S H O P P I N G ! :D Huiwen was the biggest winner! she bought alot of things cos of later on trip! we are so gonna have alot alot of fun! :D although at times my mood was down, i am glad thrs always someone with me. (: 

Exams over but troubles dont end i guess. it will always be there. Regardless of what shit happens, life taught me not to expect too much. Thr will always be a limitation. Regardless how many besties you have, some words some sentences you just cant bring yourself to say it out. And end up, feeling so empty. Fucking empty. 

hearing your name haunts me. thats how im feeling right now. That image cant stop appearing. Memories are haunting me, not allowing me to go. How do i stop this? after you got what you wanted, you decided that there was nothing for you to chase after anymore.

i know i posted this bfore but yeah this is describing exactly whats on my mind. No idea. i thought that feeling was gone, but i was all along deceiving myself. kisses on the forehead. hugs that feels right. thats what you do.  

Some things are better left unsaid. You know that kind of feeling when you just stare into blank space for no apparent reason and start making up scenarios of what could have happened, and what might not be in your life if you hadn't done certain things and stuffs. Everything happens for a reason, and these reasons are just hard to be elucidated. and out of nowhere, you find yourself empty, so fucking empty. No one seems to understand you. Not one at all. They dont put themselves in your shoes, they dont stand in your perspective, they wont know how much it hurts. 

Whats wrong with me. I still keep your texts. Like, shucks i shouldnt be doing that at all. I am just hallucinating about miracles, about you, about us. What you did yesterday was way too much for me to stand. The kind of feeling your eyes gave out, it was still the same. Thats what make you special in my heart i guess. I know i am dumb. I know it may sound super idiotic for me to not forget this type of guys. I know you people might laugh. But be in my shoes, if not you wont feel how miserable i could get. This uncontrollable feeling, almost make me on the verge of breaking down again. 

They say the past make you better and not bitter. But for me, i guess both came in. I thought once we are off from each other, we wont care anymore. You might not be true to me, you might not be sincere, but whenever i am with you, i am happy. But all this were changed into past tense. I was happy with you. We were together. 

yeah. bullshit eh crystal. it's 1239am in the morning. everyone is asleep so as to have energy for tmoro's fun but you are here mourning over the past, over the past guy. WHATS WRONG WITH ME. shit to the maximum. 說好的幸福呢? man , what the fuck i am thinking. man , what am i thinking. I am feeling so alone now. He's not with me, besties are not with me. but yeah, thank god thr's still a listening ear. 

For they say, every beginning marks a ending. If thr's a beginning, thr will be bound to have an 

ending. I knew it coming. and it ended so long ago. Feel so much better after saying all out. I 

suppose somethings are meant to be , it will be. Whatever it is, i thank you for what you had

been continuously doing. Never will we know, we will meet someday on streets again. My mind 

is what you cant decode. 

But still , 

Yeah crystal, smile. I guess i look great when i smile right! :D hahahah bhb no.1 ! I need to meet my ladies at 830am and its 1am now. so shit i only have ard 6 hours of sleep! How can i have my beauty sleep! ): But i am so excited towards tmoro! But a great pity that the polaroid film were out of stock. Great disappointment. D: and yeah, its okay. cos we gna spam with my dearest baby! ;) 

Just a note to my ladies. Whatever shit happens to us, we will walk through everything together alright. It must be godwill for us to meet. Love you girls. (:

And yeah baby. i like it how you sent me iloveyou when you cant sleep. (: dumbass uh yooooooo. ^^