This is life, isnt it? Despite how many times people ask if you are okay, you will just take back and hold all your tears to appear strong. We seldom want others to worry about us hence we are always there for them, but seldom does the same back. Guess this is me. I an only good at listening and advicing. And so i seldom bring my feelings into words. I just i am fine to cover up all the scars. Slowly, i am getting used to that ended up, i am all alone again. Damn all these negative thoughts i have at night. tomorrow shall be a better day goodnight everyone. 

我不願讓你一個人

Often at some parts of life, you just thank whoever are in your life. Did some soul searching thoughts this afternoon while studying with some dick. Not to mention name, but indeed this ass means alot to me, and i really treasure the friendship we are having right now. I just cant express the gratitude i have for this ass of mine. Many times, friends just come and go. We just got to hold on to whoever came in, but let them if they really dont have the intention to stay. As for me, deep down i really treasure every single friendship i have, despite its only those hi-bye friends i've. Guess this is me, so if you're one of my close ass, i will treasure you even more. i wont let any friendship go down the train even how big something happened. I will keep on trying and trying, for i love every single one of you. and i am really glad for those who really stayed. they say good things end, but it wont end if we dont allow it to i say. And the usual bunch of you, thanks so so so much. Just love you all so much. :") 

For i treasure every single one of you

Yay i survived another week of school. :-) AND CA2 IS ON MONDAY. all the best everyone! :)


sorry for the lack of updates recently. school has been keeping me really busy with all the tests and problems nowadays. Nevertheless, i am still optimistic abour life, for there are more wio are worse than me. isnt it? :) 

 Personally, i like this photo above ^ :) 

Shall talk about the drama night last week. It was fabulous. :) Headed there with clique and upon reaching there we started taking alot photos. I was damn excited to see how people dress themselves! And they assigned our seats, most ridiculous thing ever. The ticket said it was free seating. What now? TROLLED much. and personally i really like gordon's part. :) after the show i headed to supper with fel jo val and some guys. that couple really made me fedup. :( its alright, at least we had a fun time. :-) 


Monday was okay and tuesday i skipped cca due to fatigue and skipped school on wednesday due to doctor's appt at kk hosp. Glad everything's going well for me. At least those metal inside my back are fine. And yeah, i went back school for class test thinking that it is gonna be included in ca2 and ended up... i got conned. THAT 3 BITCHES OF MINE DIDNT TOLD ME THE TEST WAS CANCELLED AND THEY LIED TO ME JUST BCOS THEY WANT ME TO BE IN SCHOOL SOBS BASH THEM T___T nevermind then. i went back school for ball and netball. Oh did i told you guys, that i have been consistently playing netball in school nowadays. This sport had really captured me. :) x and this is a really good way to unleash all your emotions out. and i cant believe, i actually let those tears fall in school. I seldom do that, but on this particular day, i did. Life goes on. :-) 


Again i skipped cca on thursday bc of physics common test on friday. Rushed home to study and heard the news that many of our names are with principal just because we skipped cca. what is this? got so pissed and told mom. Mom was also kind of disappointed at this particular teacher. even i am. i thought she was nice and stuff... le sigh forget it. 


& Friday marks the best of this week. :) 

 ^ racial harmony last thursday :) 

 

Bowling sep with the bitches and co members :') ^ 

 Loving this two bitches of mine. <3 :) 

 and this two photos were taken yesterday, in class. swag not. :) 

So why do i say friday marks the best day? Definitely, i am always looking to Friday every single week. I just cant wait for TGIF day. :) Right in the morning, physics common test was the first to come. Lucky Johnson Tay wasnt here, so the stress wasnt really there. & very lucky, i managed to finish the paper despite it was really very time consuming. and i just hope for a b3. that would be very good. :) afterthat it was chinese. this tricia lim never fails to make me laugh during lessons. :) love her. ^^ and then back for chemistry, lab time yayyyyyyy. and recess, had a routine talk with that bestie of mine. really glad to have him. :) you know who you're, and i can assure you that our friendship can go on to the very end. love ya, :) and it was all the trainee teachers last day in MF yesterday. We made a card for ms serena and ms neo for they really put in the effort and taught us alot. :) And hence we started taking photos! and good friend malcolm took the initiative and wanted a picture with me and put on instagram. Yet i took his phone and go ard taking photos w others... ok so guilty sorry malcolm :( but hes okay w it, hehe yay. and introducing my favourite class...........

3Justice.

^ yes, this is it. 2012 is coming to an end and i cant believe i have been in this class and this bunch of lovely classmates for nearly a year. so much memories to hold, they are definitely part of my motivation to go to school. Thanks so much 3j. :) 

and again, netball after school. But this time round, i only played for a few matches and went to have a talk with Huiyiyap. :) Definitely, i love talks like this whereby both of us share our problems and sorrows and happiness to each other, updating about our lives. Just so glad to have her. & she really got me reflecting. Thanks so much huiyi. You're indeed the best senior i ever have. :-) more like a really close friend, i can say :) 

Things start to pick up slowly and i am really glad for that. Lets all just forget what had happened and look forward to life for it goes on. We just gotta put down all those sadness and stuffs, isnt it? :) I am indeed happier now. thanks for all those who are always there for me, you know who you are. Though all these friendship stuffs are inevitable, dear clique, i know we will have the old us back again. I still put all of you as my top priority. I am really glad that i am fortunate right now,  still having some people to turn to whenever i am feeling down. At least i know, i still have many loved ones by me right by my side. If you all know me, i am sure you all know i am those who will never give up on a friendship, no matter how others tell me to give up. I will often tend to have the mindset that friends dont come easily, so what for giving up just for some small little matters that can be resolved easily? My close friends all mean so much to me. Yeah, the usual bunch of you. I am really glad to have all of you here, right by my side. I treasure every single one of you. & when i say this, i really do mean it. Love you people. <3 

alright, shall head out to meet jiaying before meeting bestfriend to study!!!! 

Tired. Cant believe this is happening.


stay strong everyone. i shall have an early night. it's 2 in the morning.

Shall blog really long. :) ( try la )

Monday was lai wan ni bestie birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BITCH, LOVE YOU FOREVER. NO NEED SAY MUCH, EVERYTHING'S INSIDE THE CARD. :) gave her the present clique bought early in the morning and she carried it ard the whole day. so cute :') and then after school we lied to her, or perhaps.. more of tricking her into saying that we're just going to makan and then homed. but it was actually a lunch time at swensen's. Long time since 6 of us went out. :) Hope this birthday girl had fun, loving you always dear. :) xx 

OH AND I KISSED HER. 

Tuesday was a pretty fine day i guess. :-) AND FINALLY IT'S WEDNESDAY THURSDAY AND FRIDAY. stayed back to study................ but i ended up balling. bad point about bringing pe to school to change oh well. 


SATURDAY! :') best day, i can say. :) wokeup as early as 630am as i am meeting weizhen ginn ziwei and ruqing for breakfast at prata house at 8am. reached there on time and met the rest of the class in school at appr. 905am, was slightly late though! then we headed to redhill for our service learning. although whole class went, we were then splitted into two groups. i really like my groups here, and the oldies over at my side are much more lively and bubbly as compared to the other side i think. :) and they are really cute!! upon reaching there we started to interact with them and stuff. and spoke to some of them in some dialect, not bad not bad :") then we let them have their lunch, and then we proceeded to our first game. AND I STILL REMEMBER HOW ME AND WARREN RAN IN THE RAIN JUST TO TELL MR CHEN THAT WE ARE GOING BACK ON OUR OWN. THAT SLOPE....... WA I WILL NEVER FORGET. IT'S SO.......... SCARY LA T.T i was super drenched and... sweaty. yeah, imagine that.. ok sucks. x.x nevermind then, so we stayed till around 1plus. and ginn went missing for nearly an hour, scared the hell out of everyone of us. nevermind, shall not mention. afterall, i am sure everyone had fun. Heartwarming to see this side of everyone. It was really great, that feeling. :) i am sure all the photos below paints many thousand words. :-)

Like this in personal. :) 

Those aunties uncles are really cute. Seeing them being so cheerful and bubbly, so optimistic at such old age, it hits me. If they can be so happy, why am i letting all those negative useless thinkings of mine to get the better of me? They are really our role models. Being so enthu in whatever we taught them and stuff, they are really really nice souls. Love them, and promise them that we will return soon. :) it was such a meaningful and fufiling saturday as i headed town with ginn later on too. And had dinner with momsie, dad and dad's friends. :-)


it's 111am now and i am really tired. Had such a long night. Goodnight everyone :)