Happy happy good friday guys!! :-)

I think my friday went pretty well with an outing with the usual group of people! A pity claven couldnt join us but its ok!! And yes G.I joe is a must watch! MUST ALRIGHT. This action movie really took me ashocked! Not only were the male leads handsome, the movie was plotted in a way that audiences will never notice nearly 2hours just passed like that!! All in all, a great day with great company. :) and really big thanks to wenrong who saved me cos i need to pee so badly HAHAHAHA. And the guys were being plain irritants again while waiting for train, sighhh haha :)

Just that i thought when everything ia going well, we had to get into situations like this. I wanted to say all those out but hell no i am just digging my own grave. I hate to end my nights like this with you.

So helpless when it comes to you.

Now that its nearly 2am i am so hungry... I have no choice but to sleep T__T back to studying like busy bumble bees tomorrow! Time to buck up and chiong ah! ^^

Have a great weekends everyone!

I made a vow that i will never cry in school. What happened to me today? I broke that vow.

First two days of term 2 week 1 had passed just like this. Approximately 209 more days to O levels. Its seems so far.. Yet so near. Flunk about 2 subjects this common test and i've to really pull my socks all the way up to my forehead already. My results are really bad. :-( whatever it is, i cant wait for syf to be over too. I just want to concentrate on my studies and thats all :) some visuals below!

I thank you for every single thing you've did. I have no idea where to find another you, my friend. :)

I really wanna thank those who really stayed. Its really hard to find people like that nowadays. I should be honoured and contented, and not asking for more.

I felt that my holidays just started but its already sunday in a few hours time so in another day my holiday is gone just like that. Gonna camp home and finish up whatever assignments i am left with, its so tiring!!! But i felt the exchange at greenridge was really great today! Had a great time with my cca mates too, gonna miss the whole lot of them when its time for me to step down!! T__T headed town to get my fish eye lens and started playing with idiot fel while otw home.... Whole damn loads of fun with that bitch haha!!! Thanks for coming out even though its so damn last minute!! AND TOWN WITHOUT MONEY SUCKS SO BADLY I AM SERIOUS

Anyway we had an advanced birthday celebration for teoxuanliang on thursday! It was a really simple one and i hoped he enjoyed himself as much as we did. Happy sweet 16 in apprx 2hours time H.S liang hahahah thats what you want right ;)

And then mugging at starbucks yesterday was really productive. Catch up so much with each other about our daily lives and realised how much i need this girl. I've no idea what would i do without her.. Thanks kimmy i know you will read this ;)

I am so mentally drained that i dont feel like doing anything other than watching the tv but... Guilt eats me up. Sigh.

Its crazy how i am crying so badly at half past midnight with nothing but books around me. Finally my tears gave way. I wanted you to be here so badly.

真的不要对我那么好 我会非常害怕失去你
你真的不知道我也很害怕你对我那么好

Its 8pm now and i just reached home. Although its march holidays i am having school almost single day due to cca! A good thing that no supp classes are to be carried out this holiday so at least i am still glad on that. :-) so mentally drained due to cca but nope... Not gonna give up! Gonna make this the best performance i've ever bring out! All the best everyone whos in performing art!! ^^ and this busy hectic schedule really made me so behind time. Need to really work hard after the holidays. Haha procrastination strikes again!!!

Anyway here pretty sums up my week :-)

Please be fine grandpa.

At times i find it really obvious who care for you and who doesn't. Its all in their actions. It's so obvious that i feel like shutting my eyes to avoid anymore disappointment within me. All alone again, what can i do.

Sometimes i really dont get what humans are all thinking. How could they make a hill out of a mole? How could they have such scary motive? How could they be so selfish? It all come to moment whereby everyone seems so scary to you. You have totally no idea what the fuck they are trying to do nor will they have the idea how much hurt they are bringing to people. Its hell way my tolerance, but what can i do other than continuing to tolerate and act as nothing happened? Again, thats life. Its a repeated cycle, how do you even stop it? Its so tiring.

Probably 都累到麻木了

" i will always be here for you always " 哈哈真是个天大的笑话. You're always on your own, no one is willing to listen to you, no one is willing to share your problems because they themselves are too busy with themselves. Not say they are selfish but i came to realise that at the end of the day, you're all alone.

Feeling so helpless sigh

It sucks so much when your day didnt went well and yet you've got no one to confide in fuck that feeling goodnight everyone

Something special. :")

Start of the normal routine of school days from tomorrow onwards again.... Still, gonna relax till monday. Cant wait for my programmes lined up this coming weekends!!! Hell yayyyz cant wait ;)

Anyway i caught 9.9.8.1 and ghost child yesterday and today respectively. Imagine watching two horror movies in two days straight... Literally numbed to the pain man. And HAHAHAH its really cute to see my girls being so scared and i swear they are so damn embarrasssing omg shit 😅 and now i cant wait for more things with this group of people!!! :-)

And urgh, hate it when my sexaye ladayes cant make it to a timing together :-( miss all of them so damn much... Especially my twin. Sigh twin be touched ok!!! To be frank i miss alot alot people. Those who drifted with me, those who are those hi-bye-text-sometimes friends, those who you see everyday on mrts, buses, those who you see everyday, but you still miss them. Its just so indescribable. I hate the feeling of missing someone.

Have you ever miss someone so badly that even you can feel your heart cringe whenever you think of this person? I did.

So glad that common test is over, or should i say, theres actually another chinese paper tomorrow but...... No way man its chinese so heck!!!! hahaha
Anyway CT sucks so much because not only its very abrupt, the timetable was so screwed up, and this period is such busy time. How do we even dig out time to study? Make no sense.... 😅
Whatever it is, its over now and whatever results i am getting back, its no use that i cry over spilled milk. I will just work way much harder than what i am doing right now. Its march, just approximately seven more months to Os. Fucking seven. How is time even enough? Now i really cant wait for syf to be over. I know everyone is really doing their best and hopefully we can successfully attain what we want :-)
On a happier note, i finally received my pay today after 18264749294 years!!!! T____T wa that feeling when your hardwork pays off as money.... HUAT AH!!!!
Life's pretty great, substracting off all the thoughts i am having now and then. :-) till then everyone! x

现在才发现要找一人诉苦都好难