Wa... Don't even got the guts to tweet for fear of being judged. They say they don't, but who knows? They say don't get affected bc they're just some unknowns trying to make themselves look better but take a look at our society, who's not judged? I need to grow some balls to even tweet HAHAHAH

Today marks a day whereby peh and i really showed our weak side. Glad to have her around :-")

come on, i don't deserve this.

FINALLY MY FEVER SUBSIDED AND I'M GOING BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW HELL YAY BITCHES CAN'T WAIT!!!! ( bc tomorrow marks the last day of the term!!!) ok but..... There's two weeks of supp and two weeks of super duper intensive self study or book appt with teachers in preparation for prelim1!!!! May all the odds be in my favour oh well

Taking a look back the past (nearly) six months, time really flies... i thought i was just trying my best to adapt to this hectic life of a sec4 and in a blink of eye it's already june. We're merely left with 144days to the first paper and august marks the start of our english oral. It gets so contradicting when i want Os to be over really soon and yet at the same time i'm afraid of its arrival. Not only this, it also means that times with my precious ones in school are getting lesser and lesser. Now that everyone is getting into the study mood, i am sure i won't and i can't forget this feeling when all of us mugged together for the common goal we've in our mind. Whatever it is, i know that my top priority is studies and i vow that nothing will come in between that. i will just push everything aside now, i can't afford to not do well. That's it, my mind is set. I can't be wasting that few hundred bucks away HAHAHA

Have a good weekend ahead everyone!!! I can't wait for my weekends to arrive programmes lined up for it are too thrilling!!! ^_^ have a great holidays too!!

AHHHHH THE PERKS OF BEING AN O LEVELS STUDENT.

(Enjoy some visuals!!! Take a few minutes to really absorb those words if you want to :-) )

It's easy for you doesn't mean it's easy for me. Remember that.
好辛苦

Why is it so hard for people not to be judgemental? Why is it so hard for people not to be busybodies and just meddle their own matters? When will they learn that all the small little actions or words they say may be a huge dealt to people? Why can't they just be a little bit more understanding and keep everything to themselves? Is it really necessary to make that awful remark? Is it really necessary to laugh at people? Think it through. God's watching, karma's going around.

& when is it that i do not have to keep everything to myself? so tired, but it seems to be the only choice that works in a fucked up society like this.

Had only a 2 hours sleep last night cos of the ridiculous yet wonderful talk with peh when she crashed my crib yesterday. It was a great night i can say. ;-) & i had such a long day today, from celebrating jioh's seventeenth at his doorstep before he even wokeup to spending my whole afternoon studying at park mac, i'm thankful that it's vesak day! ^^ oh and i had a super wonderful and vibeful night with my dearest classmates and teachers!!! First the buffet was great (bc i literally saved my whole stomach for that day) secondly the grade A company is another plus point! I just love how our whole class can just seem to fit in each other so well! Love you all justicians! ^_^

" not to worry, i've got your back no matter what. "
" just like how i've got yours? "
So sweet, so so sweet. :-""")

School's way tooooooo hectic. I need a mini getaway but what's holidays when O's not even over? this obstacle is really big. Plus the constant old feeling coming back every night, sucks pretty much. I'm quite a sucker at expressing and sometimes i feel so good when i made someone's day. It feels just so different when you know your small little actions can easily lighten someone else's mood. That's goooooood hmm :-)

Trust me i wont let go so easily. Till then guys! Enjoy your short holidays! ^^

A sunday post to wrap up my wonderful week. :-) as usual, a week filled with ups and downs.

School's out on monday!! WOOHOOOOOO so on monday i had e learning day and after that i went to catch ironman with da girls!!!! IT WAS SHOOOOOO GOOD I CAN'T DENY THAT ROBERT CARTNEY JR IS ONE HOT GUY THOU HE'S OLD HAHAHA!!! and then went to laze around amk bc i owe them icecream haha i was so late( as expected though) we parted and i went to meet up with the usuals! We then headed to sweechoon!!! Yummmmmz good food :-)))) with grade A company somemore, heaven ^____^

Tuesday we had no school again but i mugged the whole day due to physics spa on thurs!! Wednesday was then spent with dearest boh mugging at coffeebean. Love such sessions with her :-) and then TGIF!!!! ^^ spent my precious friday with the bitch peh..... SIGH. but it turns out to be so welllllll ;) from the small little chats while we were studying at park mac to the long never ending conversations at scoopz, i love her so much :-) times like this just make me feel i have digged out another layer of her :-) yayyyyz. and i can't wait for the things we agreed on doing!!! Cheerios to that!! ;)

My saturday turned out well too as i met up with twin. Although it was just a few weeks since we met, i feel that i have got soooooo much to update her! Ended up we spent one hour plus over dinner catching up. Feels so good when you can rant all you want without getting judged. :-) i love you twin!! AND OH SHE SAID I AM ABNORMAL. HENCE THIS EXPLAINS WHY SHE IS TOO COS WE'RE TWINS HAHAHA BITCH KWAN ON THE MOVE

Sucks so much when i've no idea what's going on your mind. I can't lose this. Can't i have everything back?

Now that it's already 1am on the clock, i am sure gonna be dead for school later. Bound to be a living zombie..... Damn. :-( and i love late night phone calls with the usual bitch!!!! ( be honoured when you happen to see this) another week of hectic routine.... Leggo!

Halleluyah hi guyssss it's mother's day!! Happy mother's day to all! Especially my most beautiful mother. She's the best!! (For that she tolerated all the bullshits and stuffs... HAHAHAHAH) anyw, today's gonna be really busy!! Ohya, i'm glad that she's happy with my gift! Yayyyz :)

This week passed extremely fast!! It's like... ZOOOOOOM, it's friday!!! everyday it will just be me fighting against time..... What to do! 162 days to Os!! All the best people!! ;)

Oh and yes!! It was jerry's big 16th last tuesday! We went all the way to his house despite not knowing where he stay!! HOW GOOD CAN WE GET? Kekekeke. :-)

FOUR DAYS OF HOLIDAYS FOR ME... Hip hip hoorrrrraayyyyyy *whistles.
Can't wait for the arrival for moday!!! Have a good week ahead everyone! I love short holidays like this, allowing me to catch some breath!

& sigh, it become so helpless when you see your best friend being so upset and yet you can't help her... :(

And not forgetting, thanks valerie and huieng for the yummy chewy juniors!! :* these two girls are so sweet!!! :-)

& finally sorted out all my gifts, am so glad for every single one of you and your thoughts!! <3

Also my saturday night was so well spent with my ladies. A short meet up with a daisy from dearest so is just so awesome. :) strictly pancakes was as good as i first tried it and i am proud to say i did managed to finished almost all!! ( the share was really big in case you dk!! ) we walked from dhobby from somerset for some shopping and all with laughters and jokes all the way! Other than great, it's still great with them around. :-)

Later around 9plus i then went to find burden fel to accompany her for her dinner! End up we sitted at popeyes for quite a while talking everything under the light. :") love to end the night like this. What can be better? :)

Now that i am so fucking sick i can't even talk not having to feel the pain in my throat. Gosh that feeling.... Sucks. :( moreover my whole body is aching. Why immunity system you're failing me now when i am gonna have my O levels chem spa tmr why.... And the amount of work i've... Just dampens the sunday mood. I am so sleep deprived. Someone save me.. 5 more months to Os, leggo!

DON'T GET TIRED OF THIS POST READ ON :)

2 may 2013, happy 16th to myself!!! :D 

Not forgetting, every single one of you who made this birthday such a good one. :"""") 

Before the actual day, i received an essential oil and some donuts from clique and they told me more surprises are coming up!!! oh god, i was so damn touched. Remembering that it was a monday and i was supposedly to have my chem spa but cancelled... and then having cip after school. ok bullshit time's up!! OH AND YEAH, MR VICKNESH PASSED ME MY PRESENT. so touched, :") Partly why i love school so much! 

ain't the donuts so cute? ^^ esp the smiley face! and the bitches told me they get it for me the black one exactly bc it suits me.. BITCHINESS ACTING UP. and below it's what mr vick got me, he's so nice. :-) even my mom said he is! 

then the next day tuesday.... OK NOTHING HAPPENED T___T 

and here comes wednesday! It's labour day and thus the public holiday! I had planned to have lunch with JUST jiaying and then study date with bestie oon. AND IT TURNS OUT... 

and yes you guessed it correctly. these three bitches came surprising me @ my place at 1pm... THEY TOTALLY GOT ME INTO A DAMN BIG SHOCK. first time ever people came to my place just to surprise me for my birthday. I mean, i really didn't expect them to do so!! Esp when this period of time is so nearing to MYE and all.. my goodness i almost teared when i saw commanderlim for he came all the way from bukit gombak to woodlands just for me ( AT LEAST I THINK SO) I LOVE THE THREE OF YOU SO SO MUCH. the card from jiaying is way too sweet too, pictures really serve as such good memories, aww :"") i love you so much boh, muackssssss!!! and the chat at coffeeshop with them was great, despite not meeting for ages already, not much awkwardness was felt for all of us were so humorous!! thanks man guys, you people made me miss primary school even more. :( 

and then i went off to meet kimmy!! 

we went for a study date ( REALLY SO PROUD THAT WE DID STUDY ) apparently every single time we meet up, we will talk non stop!!! lucky that this time round we really did settle down after catching up for awhile! ^^ I wonder what good deeds i did in my past life to have her in my life right now, love you oon. :-) A short yet amazing day spent.

Afterthat i went home around 8plus and to my surprise, i found this.... 

A very big thank to my parents who planned this for me. AWFULLY CHOCOLATE... HOW YUMMMMMY MY GOODNESS :"""") After this i then went on to mug for my upcoming war the next day on my birthday. yeah imagine that, how great it is to have prelims on my birthday... SIGHPIE MY LIFE. Hopefully my efforts will pay off bc i did put in quite an amount of efforts.. never did i once studied so much for my languages. 

and at 12 sharp, everything started coming in!!! A very big thank to those of you who especially called me, you know who you're! and those who esp stayed up for me even though we have our major papers tomorrow. Deep down i remember all these small little details. You people are great :') 

and upon reaching school, wishes started coming in and i didnt expect this to come but.. RUANZHI AND HUIMIN GAVE ME A TUMBLR FOR MY BIRTHDAY GIFT. AHHHH WHY ARE THEY SO SWEET AND NICE TO ME :-( Thank you shuxuan for the beautiful rose, my dear!!!  And then natasya came to pass me the muffins she baked for me. Thank you natasya, they are so yummy!!! I really recommend you to open a bakery next time in the future!!! ( TILL NOW THE BITCHES STILL HAVE NOT GIVE ME ANYTHING :@ ) 

and there came these three bitches who passed me their handmade cards and gifts. Thank you girls, these two years with you three are never enough. I know things may be a little different now, do know that when i look back twenty years later, i will smile widely that i've you girls with me walking with me, fighting all odds of our major exam by studying together and all. As mentioned, i've read your cards and really, no words can express how much those cards meant to me. :") You girls made my upper sec life more meaningful. :) muackssssss!!!! 

AND SAWZIWEI, NOT FORGETTING YOU. :-) i love the card that you made, it's so so so cute!!! & most importantly, the content of the card is just.. great. Other than great i really can't find any suitable words to describe the feelings evoked out of me when i read your card. I am so glad that i met you bc i know whenever i've any problems, you're gonna to be always there for me. We are often in similar situations and thus understand each other well which resulted in our closeness. I am sure our friendship will go on for decades, my pretty girl. <3 

Papers went well and meanwhile when i am waiting for the girls, i had some time playing with ginn and co!! ^^ thanks guys :) 

yeauzhengwu!!! this photo is nice leh i think... why do you have different taste from me sigh :( Thank you ginn so much for the films, thank you zhengwu for your so-called "birthday gift", thank you evelyn for the markers, thank you kaiyung for the initiative to take a polaroid with me. :) 

and out of nowhere... 

the four bitches appeared with this huge card. Once again, just like last year, they did such a huge card. But this year it was so different!! MY NAME WILL GLOW IN THE DARK. (next time i show you guys) I am so amazed by their idea!!! Thank you so much bitches!!! now enjoy the next few photos of us <3 

How sweet can you girls get? Treating me to my lunch, buying me our 'bear' and most importantly the companion on my birthday? You girls plays such an important role in my life and i will not even dare to think about secondary school life without all of you. You girls have made such a huge impact that i believe that the end of our friendship will be when all of us... you know, choy la!!! :) I believe this strong bond between the five of us won't fade. We've been through so much and now that we've really settle down, i can't wait to be you girls' bridesmaid and all!! All the fun and laughters we have everytime we're together, i always want to ask for more. Whatever it is, you girls have a very strong individual part in my heart and this will remain eternity. I promise, girls. :) It just seems that our characters were meant for each other.. ( aww damn this is mushy but.. muacks!!! ) 

take note ah, till now my 搞笑行动 group still has not give me anything!!!!

Thinking that they will probably have a belated birthday celebration, i went home at evening time so as to prepare myself for my the other two parts of the language papers. & THEY ARE STILL NOT DOING ANYTHING!!!!! HAHA AND AT 8PLUS I HEARD A VERY LOUD KNOCK AND SOMEONE SHOUTED " PIZZA HUT DELIVERY!!! " i was kind of afraid and i took quite awhile to get out but who knows..... 

yeah probably you guessed it already or so but... I DID NOT!!! T___T i almost teared when they suddenly stood outside my house and started singing the birthday song.. AND I WAS SO UGLY, BEING IN MY HOUSE ATTIRE.. AH DAMN. :-( and when i thought it is just the usual group, yap huiyi suddenly popped out behind them!!!! I WAS UTTERLY SPEECHLESS. really speechless, i can't believe how they actually planned so much without me knowing... am i really that dumb? Or are they too good at surprising? haha, you guys ah.. bagus! The ice cream cake was yummm yummm thumbs up too! AND QUICKLY MY HOUSE WAS KIND OF TURNED UPSIDE DOWN... SIGH. & bc huiyi has to rush for her dinner, we quickly took many pictures and all! I was so touched by her card. ;) 

( kindly ignore all the extras at the back) 

and yes huiyi, hereby a really big big big thank you for whatever you've done for my sweet sixteen birthday. Your gift is really one sweet thing!! Just by the sentence " I've confidence that our friendship will never wither" made me love you even more, immediately boosting my confidence to 1000 for our friendship. :-) I am so glad to meet you and was even happier when you're here to celebrate my sixteenth which i can never dare to imagine about it. :) I find our friendship so amazing, it comes just so abruptly, yet so wonderful. I can never find another huiyi, another friend like you for you're one special one in my heart that no one can replaced. Thank you for what you did for my birthday, esp the planning part with felicia. :-) 

most importantly, 

A pity that claven can't make it for my big day but it's alright, afterall it's the thought that counts. :)  This group of you, every single one of you, i will never ever forget. Trust me when i say never, it means forever. :) Despite only not long since the few of us become so close together, the bond among all of us is just too.. indescribable. The laughters and joy you people bring to me, all these will be closely kept to my heart. Thank you people for travelling all the way from amk to woodlands despite having your prelims tomorrow. Thank you people for taking the time and efforts to plan and LIE TO ME!!!! Thank you people for the victoria secret perfume, thank you people for the bomb of money spent on me. Words really can't express my gratitude for all of you. A huge pity that we only got so close at our graduating years but, what's this compared to our upcoming few more decades of friendship, right? :) You people are really so good at surprising, even up till now i can't forget how you guys can actually act like nothing is going to happen and yet appearing at my doorstep out of nowhere. That shows so so much. I love you all so badly :-) I will make every moment we are together counts, cheerios guys!! Moments spend with you people are never enough. :) They say true friends stick through all shits together, so let's do this shit!!!! ^^ Hereby i can tell proudly to everyone, you guys are really great. 

Thank you so much best friend. & yes, i seldom recognise people as my best friend, but felicia, you're really one that i name right deep down from my heart. Despite all the bullshits you give me, i love you alot!! Just like what you mentioned in your huge a3 card, despite only getting closer during sec3, just like how you felt, the same goes to me. We are like a pair of shoes, if one goes missing, the other can't function its usage well. Same goes to us, i can't possibly imagine days in school without you this bitch having to disturb me and do all sorts of rubbishs to me. :) Even at times, i am so envious of our friendship. I've never been in such 'r/s' with anyone and you're like just another kimmy, just that i will get bored of your face more easily!!! HAHAH FAKE YOU KNOW I STILL LOVE YOU THE MOST. thank you so much for your card, thank you so much for the high cut converse, MOST IMPORTANTLY, THANKS AH FOR THE CONTINUOUS THICK WRAPPING OF WRAPPING PAPERS AROUND YOUR GIFT T__T Fret not, this will definitely not be the last year we're celebrating each other birthday together because i promise you, i will watch you till your last breath my dear girl. Nothing will pull us apart, get that into your stupid brain alright? :) Whatever happens, forever i will be your backbone, bc i am always behind you!!!! :D 

& you did so much just for this surprise you wanna give me, from contacting kimmy to rochelle, you seeked informations about my address and all, thank you so much bitch. Your efforts are very much appreciated, i am so glad to have you. :) 

In short, again and again, other than saying thank to the 7 of you, i really have zero idea on what to say. It seems to me that we've bonded so quickly and i know this friendship will not fade regardless what paths we are heading after this year. Many may think, 'haiya how close can they get? they just got close this few months, their friendship confirm wont't last la. " but deep down, i know we will prove them wrong. & thank you huiyi too, for planning together with felicia for this special surprise that i will never forget. 

a really big thank to every single one of you who made my birthday such a memorable one!!!! It was really a sweet 16!!!! SWEETEST BIRTHDAY I'VE EVER EXPERIENCE. i can never ask for anything more!!! & those who stayed up to 1159 to wish me another time of happy birthday, thank you all too. :-) 

ONCE AGAIN THANKS FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY SUCH A MEMORABLE ONE.

OH FUCK YEAH I AM FINALLY 16! NO MORE NECESSITY TO SNEAK IN NC16 MOVIES, CAN WALK IN PROUDLY LO YAY!!! 

thank you my dear. <3