Read this.

" stop asking people to stay in your life, it's very pathetic. If they would want to stay in your life, they would jolly well make the effort. Fucking wake up to your senses and stop begging people to stay when their initial motive was just to be a passer-by in your life. " this so so much.

keeping all close to my heart

Happiness comes from within, how true is that. I guess i am really counted as one lucky bitch that definitely do not deserve such lovely people in my life and yet all of them stick so close to me. Really lucky me, i ought to start cherishing everything, for fear for another incident like that to happen again. This is really something about friendships, they surprise you out of nowhere and they stay for long. Probably not all but it's already nice to be friends, isn't it? 

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one more photo of our annoying faces to annoy you guys hehe

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finally had time for my homies after three long good years. nothing much changes, the warmth we share, the jokes we crack, the way we laugh at feifei's actions, it all didn't change. Pretty amazing how i always think people change but they always proved me wrong. Thankful for you girls, thankful for the amazing tuition journey throughout my four years in secondary school (( esp jiawen i ai you hehe)) the day ended especially well with the we-are-going-nowhere-but-super-heartwarming talk with my feifei. love for you girls 

AND PLEASE TAKE A MOMENT TO APPRECIATE HOW CHEEKY MY FEIFEI IS OMG SO CUTE HAHAHA

I guess we have all come to an age whereby the number of friends doesn't matter anymore, it's the number of true friends that is the concern right now. Really have to start appreciating every little small things that occurs in life, never will we get to know when we are not able to cherish all these again. They say some things in life don't come twice, once you missed it, that's it. Never would i want this to apply in my situation((obviously)) but just a gentle reminder to everyone to start grabbing chances and never have any regrets in your life. no, not even a small one. The heart is telling me to take a break and yet the mind says likewise. Work as usual later and yet i am not asleep at nearly 3am great job crystal. 

No amount of sorry can convey the hurt I had incurred on you
No amount of heartaches can bring back the sparks we had, so beautiful sparks
No matter what happen in the future please remember you matter the most to me, no matter what. it has been such a painful night goodnight everyone

Few of the reasons for my smile 

Pardon if the photos are not in their best quality because the urge to post some happy stuffs just came to me at 130am in the morning hehe

Finally had a reunion with my annoying bitches in class after years!!!!! Sobs even though i see wenning often but it's so nice to have the four of us together again.... Like the fantastic four. Ok kidding but you guys get me right, i just love to spend time with them (( not the fact that ginn always dao me and them saying i am such an annoying piece of shit :( )) dimsum buffet was great followed by some retail therapy and then some really nice talk with the dumbass bitchsoo :-) talks like these always caught me aback, how we both think so alike, how we both feel almost the same, and how talks like these can easily cause me to think about the life i am having. Happiness indeed but to be honest are we really happy. But like what she said, we just learn along the way. We just learn from our mistakes. We make mistakes, so be it. As long as we learn, we hold our heads high up again. Because only when we start loving ourselves, people will then love us.

Ended my march with so much memories to hold and with that i am foreseeing a great april coming in my way. Just few days ago, some of my friends were having serious throwback sydromes that caused me to really look back my four years in mayflower. I admit, there have been so many times whereby i regretted coming to a foreign school alone in an ulu part of singapore that i have never pass by before but now, i can proudly say that never will i regret coming into mayflower. The people i have gained, the memories we all had together, the fun and happiness we brought to each other, all these bittersweet memories, stay etched on my mind forever. No matter how far you people may have walked away, i am glad that all these memories will never fade. To those who matter so much to me, you knowing who you are, always remember that no matter how far we may seem to be apart, deep down i still care for you the most, your happiness still matter to me the most. I thank God for bringing different groups of people into my life, be it them teaching me some lessons in life or purely having fun together, i thank every single one of them who made an effort to stay in my life. Because all ships work this way, they all take two hands to clap. And to the best friend kim, i can never thank you enough. Even though we are always miles apart, plus school is starting, deep down knowing that you care so much always wipe the sad face off. Thank you for accepting all my shits and sharing all our emotions together, for guiding me and coaching me patiently, for the always enthu bestie that's always so ready to do random plans we made. And this is what best friends are for. ^_^

And i always wonder how should i end every post oh well HAHAHA