"Because when you left, you took the happiest me together with you. Now that I am left with just pieces of me, I find no meaning of putting them back together. "

They said a day without any laughter would mean a day wasted. At the start of every brand new day, I would tell myself to let whatever happened yesterday to stay where they are and i move forward in my life because this is my life. However at times to come, I realized how I am deceiving myself, how i have now come to senses that i no longer have to wish for this as it doesn't really come true. Hence right now, i just want to stay around my happy pills, i just want to be happy. Underneath this always outgoing happy crystal lies one dark shade of grey I wouldn't want to reveal, i want to remain who I am this way, please just let me be. I just want to stay happy, I just want to fool around, so what's with all these negative stuffs? This tiredness from all these shits is swallowing me up sigh