不属于自己的东西却一直紧握在手里 ， 只会弄痛自己。

Best friday in 2012. :') 

Headed down to the lively sentosa after national day with the usual bunch of assholes. AND THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WE 5 ARE ALL HERE. really a day to remember. <3 and we only reached sentosa at 3pm when we all met at 12pm. we wasted 1h waiting. :( but it's okay, upon reaching there we got a really good place! :-) and soon after everyone started pushing each other down into water. wapiang x__x i didnt even wanna get into the water so soon in the first place. :( and the sands were scorching fucking hot i swear. while we were playing volleyball we cant help but its a must to wear slippers!!!! the guys then headed down into the sea quickly. 

Them. <3 forever and always bitches. :')

TALKING ABOUT THIS PICTURE BELOW... THIS IS WHERE I GOT CUTS ALL OVER MY LEG. WE CLIMBED ONTO THOSE ROCKS THEN WHEN I COMING DOWN I SLIPPED ON ONE THAT CANT BE SEEN THEN ENDED UP SCRATCHING MYSELF SOBS FUCKING PAIN LA T.T and those wounds still hurt today!!!!!! :( 

 and i really like this picture above ^ :)

CANT HELP BUT TO THINK I AM SUCHA CUTIE 

and these pictures are what we do when we are there. ridiculous but yeah, the guys are really funny wapiang. 

ALWAYS. :')

and botak oh volunteered to be covered w sands! so we helped him to cover himself w sands and we did a human shape w boobs and dick. LOL IT TURNED OUT TO BE.... REALLY FUNNY. 

and i like this! i dont know why. :) 

i think me and junjie so charming !!!! I HAVE MORE CHARMS THOUGH

Oh and ard 5pm my ladies ong and tans went to shower, leaving me and fel with those guys. we then had water volleyball and we were so hungry that we kept going up to grab some food. seriously hungry!!!!! and $$$ alot gone oh well. :( then the rest went to shower at ard 630 and we took the pram around palawan beach.... while singing the national day song!!!! okay xiaxuey max but yeah. and this junjie suggested going imbiah station just to get his icecream. sucha ass!!!! ended up we didnt go jayson's house but swensens! 

 and we celebrate dick rongebonge birthday at swensens! it's his birthday today though, happy birthday dick!!! :)

aww. :")

 Overall, a wonderful well spent day with this bunch of people. :)

the four days holidays are coming to an end..... cant believe friday just passed in a flash. :( definitely more outings as such will be coming up! great thanks to pehxinying for organising this trip, love ya bitchhhhhh :) 

had been coming home so late for the past few days that i have become to lazy to head out this warm sunday afternoon. perhaps i should go continue my novel, it's too amazing. :") or probably do some trigo that might trigger my smartness for maths. haha hopefully i am not losing that interest in studying. i can do this! yes, you can do this crystal! :) headed to mustafa yesterday night and reached home at 130am, and talked otp with bestfriend till 3am plus. LEI SI WO LE LA T.T these few days were really well spent, and i should keep all these memories deep down in my heart, for i treasure every single day, every single memory that i have. Thanks to all these people, my life is more complete right now. really love that special me and my ladies have despite us only meeting a few times in a year. just feel so comfortable w them. :) 

Not to mention, the rest of you too. You people know, the usual bunch of you. :) This year, so many many things had happened, but definitely i know all these are parts and parcels of growing up, so thats prolly why i just left things to what they were, and hoping someday, somehow, it will pick itself up. And perhaps, some will, some dont. The only thing we can do is just stay happy. Staying positive and optimistic will definitely help alot. I guess when somethings  are not meant to be, they cant be no matter how one try to piece everything back. I still love and care from you people, and when i say this, i meant it. And this is what makes me strong. The love and care you people are giving me, is so overwhelming that sadness could not take over all these you people gave me. Sincerely a very big thank. :') Hereby, i wish all of you to be really happy, and to know that i am always here for everyone of you. I might not be the best adviser but i dare to say, i can really listen, for everyone really need some trustable person to hear them out. Loving all of you x 

August has been sailing well. Continue to strive, august. I will work with you. :') 

past one week

Happy National Day eve, everyone. :-) 

AND YEAH, IT'S NATIONAL DAY TOMORROW!!!!!! WOOHOO IT MEANS HOLIDAYS, 4 DAYS BREAK FROM SCHOOL YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ~~ KAI XIN SI LE !!!! shall spend it wisely by balancing fun and studies in the four days. but definitely, relax tmr and friday cos plans are all made!!!! yay cant wait for friday my trip down to sentosa with my bitches!!!!  yayness omg excited x infinity!!! 

Anyway this week was... an up and down week. there was really happy and also extreme sadness time.. And emaths, chemistry results are back. Failed both, and emaths i just need that one more mark to pass. Oh well, this ca2 is seriously a wakeup call for me to start studying for my sa2 before i really start regretting when the paper comes at term4 week 3 or something. The thought of this really scares me. Whats more, O levels Mother Tongue is in November, and O levels is coming so so so soon. It's nearly the end of 2012... Why is time passing so quickly le sigh. Hopefully the choice i took will be right. Hopefully things will start to go the right way. And i have a very strong instinct that i am flunking my chinese as well. sigh really gotta pull my socks up 

These pictures above briefly described my week! AND OHYAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

NATIONAL DAY CELEBRATION TODAY WAS A W E S O M E . :) why? We( or prolly most of us) had a fun time running around the hall in a line with our hands on friends' shoulders.... #YOLO. :) it was really memorable. and especially interclass, can see so much so much bond in our class already. Really loving 3Justice. :) and headed to chantalle's crib with da ladies after that. A miss to playing netball, but well, it's okay! at least i had fun at chantalle's place. AND I HATE LIZARDS. SERIOUSLY :<

people say they're always there, and then i trusted them, slowly opening up myself to them. however it's always at a point whereby everyone gets bored of you and start to leave. it's just sooner or later. moreover, there's no that particular one who can stay with you forever. when we die, we're also alone. but remember if you ever need me, i am always here. even thou i know you might say you're, but your actions proved otherwise. whatever it is, have a great holiday ahead everyone. :")

it's just the start of august yet it started so badly... worst common test i ever did. sigh what to do

This is life, isnt it? Despite how many times people ask if you are okay, you will just take back and hold all your tears to appear strong. We seldom want others to worry about us hence we are always there for them, but seldom does the same back. Guess this is me. I an only good at listening and advicing. And so i seldom bring my feelings into words. I just i am fine to cover up all the scars. Slowly, i am getting used to that ended up, i am all alone again. Damn all these negative thoughts i have at night. tomorrow shall be a better day goodnight everyone. 

我不願讓你一個人

Often at some parts of life, you just thank whoever are in your life. Did some soul searching thoughts this afternoon while studying with some dick. Not to mention name, but indeed this ass means alot to me, and i really treasure the friendship we are having right now. I just cant express the gratitude i have for this ass of mine. Many times, friends just come and go. We just got to hold on to whoever came in, but let them if they really dont have the intention to stay. As for me, deep down i really treasure every single friendship i have, despite its only those hi-bye friends i've. Guess this is me, so if you're one of my close ass, i will treasure you even more. i wont let any friendship go down the train even how big something happened. I will keep on trying and trying, for i love every single one of you. and i am really glad for those who really stayed. they say good things end, but it wont end if we dont allow it to i say. And the usual bunch of you, thanks so so so much. Just love you all so much. :") 

For i treasure every single one of you

Yay i survived another week of school. :-) AND CA2 IS ON MONDAY. all the best everyone! :)


sorry for the lack of updates recently. school has been keeping me really busy with all the tests and problems nowadays. Nevertheless, i am still optimistic abour life, for there are more wio are worse than me. isnt it? :) 

 Personally, i like this photo above ^ :) 

Shall talk about the drama night last week. It was fabulous. :) Headed there with clique and upon reaching there we started taking alot photos. I was damn excited to see how people dress themselves! And they assigned our seats, most ridiculous thing ever. The ticket said it was free seating. What now? TROLLED much. and personally i really like gordon's part. :) after the show i headed to supper with fel jo val and some guys. that couple really made me fedup. :( its alright, at least we had a fun time. :-) 


Monday was okay and tuesday i skipped cca due to fatigue and skipped school on wednesday due to doctor's appt at kk hosp. Glad everything's going well for me. At least those metal inside my back are fine. And yeah, i went back school for class test thinking that it is gonna be included in ca2 and ended up... i got conned. THAT 3 BITCHES OF MINE DIDNT TOLD ME THE TEST WAS CANCELLED AND THEY LIED TO ME JUST BCOS THEY WANT ME TO BE IN SCHOOL SOBS BASH THEM T___T nevermind then. i went back school for ball and netball. Oh did i told you guys, that i have been consistently playing netball in school nowadays. This sport had really captured me. :) x and this is a really good way to unleash all your emotions out. and i cant believe, i actually let those tears fall in school. I seldom do that, but on this particular day, i did. Life goes on. :-) 


Again i skipped cca on thursday bc of physics common test on friday. Rushed home to study and heard the news that many of our names are with principal just because we skipped cca. what is this? got so pissed and told mom. Mom was also kind of disappointed at this particular teacher. even i am. i thought she was nice and stuff... le sigh forget it. 


& Friday marks the best of this week. :) 

 ^ racial harmony last thursday :) 

 

Bowling sep with the bitches and co members :') ^ 

 Loving this two bitches of mine. <3 :) 

 and this two photos were taken yesterday, in class. swag not. :) 

So why do i say friday marks the best day? Definitely, i am always looking to Friday every single week. I just cant wait for TGIF day. :) Right in the morning, physics common test was the first to come. Lucky Johnson Tay wasnt here, so the stress wasnt really there. & very lucky, i managed to finish the paper despite it was really very time consuming. and i just hope for a b3. that would be very good. :) afterthat it was chinese. this tricia lim never fails to make me laugh during lessons. :) love her. ^^ and then back for chemistry, lab time yayyyyyyy. and recess, had a routine talk with that bestie of mine. really glad to have him. :) you know who you're, and i can assure you that our friendship can go on to the very end. love ya, :) and it was all the trainee teachers last day in MF yesterday. We made a card for ms serena and ms neo for they really put in the effort and taught us alot. :) And hence we started taking photos! and good friend malcolm took the initiative and wanted a picture with me and put on instagram. Yet i took his phone and go ard taking photos w others... ok so guilty sorry malcolm :( but hes okay w it, hehe yay. and introducing my favourite class...........

3Justice.

^ yes, this is it. 2012 is coming to an end and i cant believe i have been in this class and this bunch of lovely classmates for nearly a year. so much memories to hold, they are definitely part of my motivation to go to school. Thanks so much 3j. :) 

and again, netball after school. But this time round, i only played for a few matches and went to have a talk with Huiyiyap. :) Definitely, i love talks like this whereby both of us share our problems and sorrows and happiness to each other, updating about our lives. Just so glad to have her. & she really got me reflecting. Thanks so much huiyi. You're indeed the best senior i ever have. :-) more like a really close friend, i can say :) 

Things start to pick up slowly and i am really glad for that. Lets all just forget what had happened and look forward to life for it goes on. We just gotta put down all those sadness and stuffs, isnt it? :) I am indeed happier now. thanks for all those who are always there for me, you know who you are. Though all these friendship stuffs are inevitable, dear clique, i know we will have the old us back again. I still put all of you as my top priority. I am really glad that i am fortunate right now,  still having some people to turn to whenever i am feeling down. At least i know, i still have many loved ones by me right by my side. If you all know me, i am sure you all know i am those who will never give up on a friendship, no matter how others tell me to give up. I will often tend to have the mindset that friends dont come easily, so what for giving up just for some small little matters that can be resolved easily? My close friends all mean so much to me. Yeah, the usual bunch of you. I am really glad to have all of you here, right by my side. I treasure every single one of you. & when i say this, i really do mean it. Love you people. <3 

alright, shall head out to meet jiaying before meeting bestfriend to study!!!! 

Tired. Cant believe this is happening.


stay strong everyone. i shall have an early night. it's 2 in the morning.