Please be fine grandpa.

At times i find it really obvious who care for you and who doesn't. Its all in their actions. It's so obvious that i feel like shutting my eyes to avoid anymore disappointment within me. All alone again, what can i do.

Sometimes i really dont get what humans are all thinking. How could they make a hill out of a mole? How could they have such scary motive? How could they be so selfish? It all come to moment whereby everyone seems so scary to you. You have totally no idea what the fuck they are trying to do nor will they have the idea how much hurt they are bringing to people. Its hell way my tolerance, but what can i do other than continuing to tolerate and act as nothing happened? Again, thats life. Its a repeated cycle, how do you even stop it? Its so tiring.

Probably 都累到麻木了

" i will always be here for you always " 哈哈真是个天大的笑话. You're always on your own, no one is willing to listen to you, no one is willing to share your problems because they themselves are too busy with themselves. Not say they are selfish but i came to realise that at the end of the day, you're all alone.

Feeling so helpless sigh

It sucks so much when your day didnt went well and yet you've got no one to confide in fuck that feeling goodnight everyone

Something special. :")

Start of the normal routine of school days from tomorrow onwards again.... Still, gonna relax till monday. Cant wait for my programmes lined up this coming weekends!!! Hell yayyyz cant wait ;)

Anyway i caught 9.9.8.1 and ghost child yesterday and today respectively. Imagine watching two horror movies in two days straight... Literally numbed to the pain man. And HAHAHAH its really cute to see my girls being so scared and i swear they are so damn embarrasssing omg shit 😅 and now i cant wait for more things with this group of people!!! :-)

And urgh, hate it when my sexaye ladayes cant make it to a timing together :-( miss all of them so damn much... Especially my twin. Sigh twin be touched ok!!! To be frank i miss alot alot people. Those who drifted with me, those who are those hi-bye-text-sometimes friends, those who you see everyday on mrts, buses, those who you see everyday, but you still miss them. Its just so indescribable. I hate the feeling of missing someone.

Have you ever miss someone so badly that even you can feel your heart cringe whenever you think of this person? I did.

So glad that common test is over, or should i say, theres actually another chinese paper tomorrow but...... No way man its chinese so heck!!!! hahaha
Anyway CT sucks so much because not only its very abrupt, the timetable was so screwed up, and this period is such busy time. How do we even dig out time to study? Make no sense.... 😅
Whatever it is, its over now and whatever results i am getting back, its no use that i cry over spilled milk. I will just work way much harder than what i am doing right now. Its march, just approximately seven more months to Os. Fucking seven. How is time even enough? Now i really cant wait for syf to be over. I know everyone is really doing their best and hopefully we can successfully attain what we want :-)
On a happier note, i finally received my pay today after 18264749294 years!!!! T____T wa that feeling when your hardwork pays off as money.... HUAT AH!!!!
Life's pretty great, substracting off all the thoughts i am having now and then. :-) till then everyone! x

现在才发现要找一人诉苦都好难