I felt that my holidays just started but its already sunday in a few hours time so in another day my holiday is gone just like that. Gonna camp home and finish up whatever assignments i am left with, its so tiring!!! But i felt the exchange at greenridge was really great today! Had a great time with my cca mates too, gonna miss the whole lot of them when its time for me to step down!! T__T headed town to get my fish eye lens and started playing with idiot fel while otw home.... Whole damn loads of fun with that bitch haha!!! Thanks for coming out even though its so damn last minute!! AND TOWN WITHOUT MONEY SUCKS SO BADLY I AM SERIOUS

Anyway we had an advanced birthday celebration for teoxuanliang on thursday! It was a really simple one and i hoped he enjoyed himself as much as we did. Happy sweet 16 in apprx 2hours time H.S liang hahahah thats what you want right ;)

And then mugging at starbucks yesterday was really productive. Catch up so much with each other about our daily lives and realised how much i need this girl. I've no idea what would i do without her.. Thanks kimmy i know you will read this ;)

I am so mentally drained that i dont feel like doing anything other than watching the tv but... Guilt eats me up. Sigh.

Its crazy how i am crying so badly at half past midnight with nothing but books around me. Finally my tears gave way. I wanted you to be here so badly.

真的不要对我那么好 我会非常害怕失去你
你真的不知道我也很害怕你对我那么好

Its 8pm now and i just reached home. Although its march holidays i am having school almost single day due to cca! A good thing that no supp classes are to be carried out this holiday so at least i am still glad on that. :-) so mentally drained due to cca but nope... Not gonna give up! Gonna make this the best performance i've ever bring out! All the best everyone whos in performing art!! ^^ and this busy hectic schedule really made me so behind time. Need to really work hard after the holidays. Haha procrastination strikes again!!!

Anyway here pretty sums up my week :-)

Please be fine grandpa.

At times i find it really obvious who care for you and who doesn't. Its all in their actions. It's so obvious that i feel like shutting my eyes to avoid anymore disappointment within me. All alone again, what can i do.

Sometimes i really dont get what humans are all thinking. How could they make a hill out of a mole? How could they have such scary motive? How could they be so selfish? It all come to moment whereby everyone seems so scary to you. You have totally no idea what the fuck they are trying to do nor will they have the idea how much hurt they are bringing to people. Its hell way my tolerance, but what can i do other than continuing to tolerate and act as nothing happened? Again, thats life. Its a repeated cycle, how do you even stop it? Its so tiring.

Probably 都累到麻木了

" i will always be here for you always " 哈哈真是个天大的笑话. You're always on your own, no one is willing to listen to you, no one is willing to share your problems because they themselves are too busy with themselves. Not say they are selfish but i came to realise that at the end of the day, you're all alone.

Feeling so helpless sigh

It sucks so much when your day didnt went well and yet you've got no one to confide in fuck that feeling goodnight everyone