A special day.

It has been really long since i sat down in front of my computer to type a blog post as online blogging is always easy with the help of blogger app. Now, let me take this chance to commemorate this special day. 

My graduation day 2013. 

i like this photo above alot!!! :-)

So yeah, as usual, we assembled and had to go through a dry run for our prom. Sounds pretty ridiculous but yeah, it's fine anyway we had fun taking photos while it's going on. Atmosphere was still uplifting so we kept on saying we will control and not to cry!!!! HAHAHAHAHA

and it's time for the real thing!!! ^_^
I was really excited for our class speech and video as many of us did put in the effort to finish up this video! Other classes speeches and videos were equally well i feel! Really got the graduating feel :-) wenning started tearing at the video and when we went up the stage to receive our graduate certificate, the girls hugged Miss Ng while the guys hugged Mr Chen!! AND YAYYYYYY MISS NG CRIED!! our mission is accomplished!!! & it feels really warm to be in their hugs! A reason why human beings loved being hugged. :-) And after us the sec5 classes started hugging their teachers too, haha trend starters is always our class *laughing emoji* At the last segment, our form teachers came to light our candle up and ...

we are officially graduated!!!!!!! HOOOOORAYSSSSSSSS

3/4 Justice. 

A very special class that i will never ever forget. Despite all the troubles and nonsense we give to teachers, our class has this very special strong bond that unite all of us, heart by heart. These 2 years with each and single one of you is great. I really really can't ask for more. You guys are such a fun bunch of people that are going to be missed dearly when we've all parted. All the fun and laughters and sadness and nonsense you people contributed and shared with me, all these will be kept dearly, kept closely to me. I will never forget how some of you tried to help me, building me to be a better person. You guys are wonderful, i've never gotten such a great class ever. A small class like us, yet having the big heart in everyone of us. hereby, i wish all of you a very best for our major exam that we have been preparing for the past few months. Regardless what routes we are going to take after the release of results, the thing i can assure all of you is that the memories we shared will never ever be gone. Once a justician, always a justician. :-) I love you guys so much!!!!!!

Not to forget, these few teachers that have never gave up on me. Never once did they, no matter how bad my results were once were. Deep down, i have such great gratitude to express but other than thank you, i realised there's no words to express this gratitude i have for all of you. The only way i can show my gratitude is through my results. And at end of january next year, i will bring it proudly to all of you. Thank you Mr Chen, Miss Ng, Mr Vicknesh!!!! :-) 

and yayyyyyyy, graduate lo!!! ^_^ 

Not only will i miss my special class, Mayflower has also brought me so many bunch of friends that i can never ask for more. No rankings one ah!!!! 

And this is one part of them. These few people bring so much laughters, fun and joy into the last few months of my secondary school life. Night study sessions with them are never boring. Despite being playful, we still mind our duty and are responsible for what our main aim are. All of you are so special to me, we share secrets, talk jokes and gossip together. All these i can never forget. But nope, i wont miss you all because i know, this friendship will go a long way. i love you people muackies!!!! 

My futsal girls. *hugs!!!!!!*
I hope you girls still remember those days when we trained so hard just for a few minutes on court. Not to forget, Mr vicknesh's treat in almost everything which i assumed had definitely cost him a bomb!!! The bond we carved out during our trainings will never be forget. Just like today, we had so much fun taking photo! You girls will definitely be a part of my memory of mayflower. You girls are great, muacks. :) 

My closest girls in class. 
Class will never be the same if it's not for the three of you. I have gone through so much with the three of you, from seeing your ups and downs to providing a shoulder for you all, we've all grown so much. :-) I treasure the three of you so much, never would i dare to imagine life without you three. But now that we have got to part after this year, my heart cringed. But i know our friendship never stops here. I'm waiting for the day your kids call me aunty! winkzzzzzz, i love you all!!! Let's strive hard for our aims girls, you all can do it!!! 

Chinhong, you're not forgotten too ^_^ 
This bunch of assholes, just got bonded so quickly together. The times we spent celebrating together, and most importantly, my 16th birthday had been such a splendid because of the seven of you. God brought us together, and i'll never let us go. and all the crazy things we once did that only we know hahahaha!!! Love you people, partyyyyyyy after o levels!!!!

I can never forget this day. The day when all the broken pieces were mended back for a day, even for just a day. 
You people know what i meant. We have gone our own ways after the separation of classes, but i am so glad that on our graduation day, we came back together, as one. It was so touching, it pulled my heartstrings. Never do i dare to dream that we will be back as one again. But my dearest cheesefries and bistout, you people have made my lower secondary days so memorable. I'm so grateful for that. No matter how we have all turned out to be, you guys will always be my favourite bunch of people. The memories we shared can never be compared with anything else. Those inside jokes and the closeness our two cliques shared, never will i forget. I thank every single one of you who made this photo a success. Now that we're back again after two years, i wish you people to do well in O's!!! so much love for you all <333333333333333

My pillar of strength. 
You girls are like my home. Without you all, it seems that i've got nowhere to belong to. You girls are the one that made my secondary school life extremely fun and exciting. I look forward to school everyday because i know school will always be fun with you girls around. No need to say much, because the day when your children are calling me 'godma' will come soon. Here's to our everlasting friendship, love you girls tonssssssssssss.

If i didnt mention you here, not to worry ok!! probably it just means that i dont have photos with you people!!! Whatever it is, i did not regret coming into Mayflower. Mayflower has brought me way too much memories for me to hold. Never will i forget all these memories, and these bunch of friends that i know, will go a long way with me. Now that i have finally graduated from Mayflower, i can't help but to look back all the way to secondary 1 when i just came into this school. Time flies, but memories stay. 

Happy graduation, students of secondary 4/5 of 2013!!!!

So what do I say about us now? I know you are not going to be the right one and yet I am willing to give it a go. But no matter how much I am willing to, I just failed at the mention of her. Probably we were not meant to be like this. So much for being friends, so much for putting in this large amount of efforts, so much of my silly thinking.

They say you be the independent girl that needs no man. But you came into my life and now you're showing signs of leaving? I thought I could rely on you. As much as I hate to be dependent on someone, you're really one that I am dependent on. So why leave? We were fine, ain't we.

I hate to end the day like this. All were fine, I thought. Yeah, I thought. so tired when I can't even find words to express all these out to someone. You just end up keeping more and more and more.

As much as i can't wait to graduate from the school, a part of me knows that i can't bear to leave a place that has carved so much memories for me. There's just too much memories for me to bear. So much for saying i can't wait to graduate when i was back in lower secondary. Now that it's four more days to graduation day, i hope time could stop on our graduation day, giving us time to stop and really appreciate the four years spent in school. It's simpy marvellous.
My best four years in life, is coming to an end.
( to be continued)

I am totally clueless about how do I carry on from here.
Do I stay or do I leave
Then what about you?
Or you?
And you?

I just can't take it anymore

Don't leave me hanging, please. This is not the right time to do this to me. The overwhelming stress is already crazy so please I beg you

So upset. So so upset.
Nothing is going right.

It's not that you do not trust them, it's certainly not that you do not want to tell them. Sometimes, it's just that you can't find the right words to express yourself, or even better, using the right words to make them understand you. This is a part i am so bad at. Times like these when hugs will be the best. Not those hugs that will want to know what happened in return, but those hugs that are really out of care concern and love for me. Yes i am in need of those. It has been a tough period, i ought to take a break. But what's a break when it's only 46 days to o levels? I thought i could get over it pretty soon all by myself but it seems to me that i am quite a sucker for it, i thought it will be easy, just who am i kidding. Upon knowing what's your motive and all, i still gave you the green light to came in. There must be something wrong with me..

They say give yourself a break when you're tired. Only in this way will you be able to walk even further. Am i able to do that? This has been such a challenge.

On a side note, physics mcq was a killer. At least for me. I will make sure i do well for paper 2, this is the time that i prove thst i can. Head to bed soon if you are still reading this guys!!!!

// always feeling so bad to be filling here with so much negativity i am sorry guys haha i love all of you

Some visions that were supposed to be uploaded in my previous post. :-)

The past week has been such a heavy week for me as there have been so many birthdays going on!!! Plus all of them are all so close friends, i bidded goodbye to so much money but its ok, glad that at least they are happy with all the gifts and stuffs!!!!

And oh, it feels so good to be homed at 1pm on a monday. :))) now i cant wait for o levels to be over.... TT

A plus point to have you. :-)