Saturday, November 23, 2013

It's gonna be a very very long post!!!!!

 A proper blog post everybody!!! have you all missed me hahahaha











17-20 November 2013. 
so yeah, in case if you are not sure who's the girl above.... she's kimberly!!! one of my best friends :-) & we went to bangkok together!!! times cant be better during the four days whereby we seen each other every single day. this has never happened before we only met like once in a few months time actually haha but distance never fails to pull us closer. So glad to have a girl like her who's so willing to accept my ugly side. Bangkok trip had been especially fruitful and at the same time, meaningful for me. A trip that i really enjoyed and relaxed, putting everything down in sg. and furthermore, there's this handsome guy who helped me massage!!!! WA THAT MOMENT I REALLY WANT TO DABAO HIM BACK TO SINGAPORE I SWEAR. and kim was like showing that -_- face when i told her about it hahaha bitchy kim :-( and very quickly, four days passed and we officially reached sg at about 12plus on the 21st!!! & coincidentally, we had our prom both on the 21st so things were pretty rushed for the both of us!!! Ok that's it, all in all i had so much fun with my best friend. I am sure we will continue a long way, i had already foresee that ;-) 

PROM PROM PROM PROM PROM 21NOVEMBER

ok here it is, the most anticipated prom of the year!!!!! ^_^ & indeed, one of the best nights. :-) 
so firstly, me and fel crashed huiyi's place at about 2pm plus because fel was too excited in meeting winnie!!! & if you didnt know, Huiyi has been such a sweetie. I can literally say that she's my "maid-of-honour" for my prom!! she took care of me from head to toe, and not to forget, her sister also for helping me and fel for our makeups. :-) Our hairdos were by her wonderful hands!!! Am really so grateful to have her, cant imagine how i will look if it wasnt for her she's sucha sweetheart huh :) & damn we dragged until 615pm then we left her place!! Called a cab and we rushed down to the hotel which we had booked with the usuals!! & we were..... late hahahaha  

ok so this is how i look, how is it tell me guys!!!! :)
 my hairstylist + maid of honour *spam hearts




MY LAST MINUTE PROM DATE HAHAHA THIS STORY IS TOO LONG 
but yeah, at least when this best bro of mine saw me, he's like... " wa ok la tonight you are quite pretty. " HAHAHA GAY HIM AS USUAL BUT ON INSTA EVERYONE THOUGHT WE ARE TOGETHER HAHA BE HONOURED GAY BRO 
& not to mention, this bro of mine is really a great one. From the pinky promise he told me to promise him to the long long message he told me just to assure i am safe, thanks so much bro. I really appreciate you ok, despite i always guailan you haha this is how i show how much i cherish you la haobuhao!!! Thanks for walking in with me, hope you enjoyed equally as much as me!!!! :-)  
  oh and we went in to the prom venue with fel and glen where we met wenning ginn all those at the lobby!!! and this burdensome fel cant walk in her heels so as usual being the awesome best friend of her i changed my heels with her. so lucky that i am able to walk in it!!!! & we are seated according to classes.... -_- wtf is thiz i cant sit with my clique i am so upset :-(





 
am really sorry for the blurry photos!!!! i didnt bring a camera with me so all photos were taken from others!!! so anyway, wenrong walked me to find my clique so my goodness... hugged them so tightly when i saw them. it has really been so so so long i met them!!! & i swear they are all so beautiful that night. Indeed my ladies <3 A pity that i sat really far from them... it's like, four of them on one side then i am on the other far end fuckkkkkkzzzzzz TT but nevertheless, we kept on looking for each other but frankly speaking, everyone was so busy taking photos that we only took a few!! HAHAHAHAHA but i am sure these are enough to last a lifetime. :-) I hope you girls enjoyed the night equally as well as i did. They went home after prom and waaaaaaaa we really have to meet soon girls!!! 
Just a short note to you four 
I know i havent been a really good friend because it always seem that i am so busy and i can't have ample time with the four of you. But you girls know what, you girls are always the first in my heart. The amount of memories and laughters you all have created will forever be etched on my mind. Regardless how busy we may be in the following months, please make sure all of you leave some time for our clique dates alright. I am so thankful to be clique with you girls, whereby all of us are so comfortable with each other. Things may be hard in the past but i am so glad we accepted each other flaws and are never afraid to be ugly in front of each other. I know we will be able to walk down a very long way because no people can ever replace the four of you. & by that, i really mean it. No one can ever replace you girls. I love the four of you, so dearly. 

about 8pm// 
So yeah we were all chased inside the ballroom and since we were told to sit with our class, my table mates were the usual!!! Ginn jerry wenning weizhen jayson kevin jioh randy warren zhenyuen and me! A pity that we forgot to take a table shot!!! :-( 
so as usual, the three bitches of mine was dragged by me to quickly take photos with me before the dishes arrived!!! oh did i mentioned, the food werent that good. & plus ah, we didnt really have time to enjoy them! also very quickly it was like the last dish... I DONT EVEN REMEMBER ME ENJOYING ONE DISH HAHA WHAT SHIT IS THIS HAHAHAHA
my favourite shot of the night ^ 












ok in case if you're wondering what the fuck we were doing... as usual, crazy things with the craziest girl soowenning. haha!! we wanted to do a jump shot but cb failed TT
 Look!!! Weren't my bitches so gorgeous that night? My goodness, indeed bitches because bitches always look so good hahaha (stereotyping a little bit la hor) & wa i guess they are like the only who are so willing to do crazy stuffs with me... HAHA SO HERE IT IS. after prom we wanted to smooch each other so i helped them to put on lipstick using mine's and this ignited everyone's interest to do the same thing!!! ENDED UP, ALMOST EVERYONE WAS KISSED HAHA I LOVE YOU GIRLS MAN YOU GIRLS ARE SO CRAZY AND SPORTY 
& in case you bitches dont know, you girls have been so great. From spending the two splendid years with me to the crazy things to the impromtu h2h talks @ dk what places, i cherish you girls so much!!! I mean, who can be so fortunate to gain such friends who are never afraid to do ugly things with me?!?! and you all also ah, leave some time for our yoga classes!!! FASTER LETS GO SIGN UP LA WALAO!!! Love you girls. :)

 4justice ^_^
So prom ended at about.. 11pm!!! and all started roaming around to take photos!!! A HUGE PITY THAT WE DIDNT HAD LIKE A CASUAL CLASS PHOTO AH DAMN BUT NEVERMIND HERE ARE SOME OF THE ONES THAT I HAVE!!!
ps i looked too fat here TT

Malcolm-
 Weiling-
kevin han most annoying bro but love you x 
 kimjioh and mr vick!!! a great thanks to this mr vick for the great prom we all enjoyed thorougly :)

 Hakim- 
I am sure i do not need to say much. Just a thank you from the bottommost of my heart. Indeed it was never easy for us but thanks so much, you will never be forgotten and remember what i said :-) Thank you!!!!
 ANNOYINGZZZZZZZZZ HUIMING

 And to this girl above, the one who i am always so comfortable in confiding, the one whom i know even though we have not talked for ages, we will still be as close as ever. I do not know what made us so close but it has been such a good two years with this girl. Those impromtu yet closest talks i had with you, those annoying moments when i always made you laugh and those moments when we both worked hard together, cry together, i will never forget them. You're really one of those whom i am so close in mayflower. & i am sure in time to come, we will be closer than ever my pretty girl. Leave some time to go out with me during the holidays and i am glad that you've trust in me just like i've for you. Stay happy my girl i love you.



 
 

 A group of girls whom we seldom hang out but once we go out we never stop talking!!! & in many people eyes they all view us as a group of close friends so yeah, thanks for the memories too my dearies!!! See you girls really soon for a proper outing!!! All of you were so gorgeous man *spam hearts

Few photos that i've with me :-(

ivan- best dressed!!!! congrats bro!!! 
A brother of mine who's always so caring and never fail to be there for people. Thanks so much for taking the intiative to want to take a photo with me after saying i look good that night! You look as equally good as well. See you soon in cca camp!  
 asdfghjlsdjeiufwpotglrllfjefhruknefehfoiefm haha i cant even.... FOR THOSE WHO KNOW, HAHAHAHAHAHA ^_^

 Haikel, one of the most gentleman guy in my cohort!!! He looked so good that night. :-)
 The most annoying and guailan red hair deroy hahaha
 cutest handsome guy jj soh!!!
 The bro who's always so bitchy hehe love you claven x
 Chinkiat!! Doesn't he look good?!
 Most eyecatching oswaldo *.* 
Thanks for posting me up on your insta you handsome bitch!!!!
 Pretty melissa who grabbed away the best dressed that night. :-)
 Cutest angela who walked home with the award of ms bubbly. & i am sure many agree that the award suits her! HAHA ISNT IT ;)
 Pretty jiamin who look simple yet elegant that night. A bitch of mine who always annoys me haha but love you!!!
 Chanhong and weihong :)
 My long awaited photo with cheesefries!!!! (ps// missing out ivan) 
A pity that my clique went quite early and we didnt managed to take a photo with this group of guys who made our lower secondary period so wonderful. They say the first group of close friends you made will never be forgotten. So this implies to you guys. All the best in the future!!!!

 Ruanzhi :-)
 Kaiyung! :-)
 Xieling who look pretty good that night too :)
 beautiful claire and metilda :)
 weixiang who look so cute in his suspenders that night!!
 pretty karleng!! (ps// xuanliang's being a bitch haha)
 cute ruqing in her beautiful dress!!
 and the beautiful natasya!!  A pity that we didnt take a full body picture!! You're so gorgeous also nat!! <33
 Ryan who walked away with the mr babyface!!! haha so cute right he totally deserved the award!!!! ^_^ 
& he was like so upset when our photo turned out blurry... i was too :-( but he went like " haha at least your face is clear!!!" HAHA thanks for all these times bro!!! All the best to you :-) 

 Most annoying bitch xuanliang haha
But yeah, he looked good that night, doesnt he!!! & no matter what, thank you for the amazing past few months regardless whether it's with the usuals or just we two!! More makan trips to come!
 

oh and also, my table was very near to evelyn and chester so when i saw them i hugged them so tightly!!!!! It has been really long since i met the both of them. Still as bubbly and annoyingz as usual haha but i love them ;-) 



  look at my sexy darling evelyn chng!!! WHEN DO YOU ALL HAVE THE CHANCE TO SEE HER HALF NAKED?! ONLY THAT NIGHT HAHAHA SHES SO BEAUTIFUL!!! AS WELL AS FELICIA AND CHESTER MAN YOU PEOPLE LOOKED SO GOOOD i really thank the three of you who accepted me for who am i, always being there for me when i am at my lowest and for being always so ready to do things muahahaha you three are awesome fucks :-*

& look... what happened when everyone is high as fuck haha





 Many of them came to me asking me to help them put on lipstick because they wanna be like.. smooching everyone they see!! I SWEAR THIS IS LIKE THE BEST PART OF PROM, WHEN THOSE LEFT ARE THE ONES WE ARE REALLY CLOSE WITH. haha look at those lips stains on our face! THANKS AH THANKS TO THOSE WHO KISSED ME AND BE HONOURED IF I KISSED YOU HAHA 

& bidded to those teachers and whole lot of them at about 12am~

at about 12mn// 
Went up to the hotel room with the usuals and evelyn because evelyn and group of friends want to bring me and felicia out! So poor them had to wait for us for nearly an hour... i am so sorry guyzzzzzz!!!! so about 1230 me and fel went to meet evelyn chester andrienne darryl and jiaxuan! Had such an amazing time with them, really let my hair down i swear!!! ALL THOSE LAUGHTERS.. HAHA I CANT EVEN FORGET FELICIA EXPRESSION WHEN THAT INCIDENT HAPPENED TO HER

  
Meet andrienn the pretty girl!!! She's so friendly and really like the times we spent even though it's the first time we met, and we are talking as though we are old friends!! More times like these to come, to the whole lot of you!!! ^_^  Bidded goodbye to them and went back to the hotel with felicia!! HAHA FELICIA WAS SO FUNNY I CANT EVEN 

back in the hotel// 

Just a few photos to show the messy state of all of them haha!!! As usual, guys being guys. :-) Shan't eleaborate much into the night but let me tell you honestly, the night was really good. (even though many of them were so troublesome & the next morning was hell with just an hour of sleep at 8am) This concluded my prom so well, thanks to everyone in the hotel room, you know who you are!!! Rest well and take care people. :-) 

21st november 2013, one of the best nights ever. I can never ask for more. 
Thank you Mayflower Secondary School, memories with this school will never be forgotten. & to every single Mayflowerian in my cohort(or even juniors), thank you for being part of my secondary school life. Life is more colourful with you people. :-) 
Still remember when i first stepped into this unfamiliar surrounding in angmokio, i thought i will have a bad time in school. But who knows, i was totally wrong. I met my most wonderful friends here and the best teachers no one can ever ask for. What else can be better? As much as those bad memories are haunting, i am glad at least so many memories were made. These will all etched on my mind forever. For those whom i know will walk down a very long road with me, i thank you from the deepest of my heart for whatever you've done for me. As prom had ended so well, i am sure all of you had enjoyed equally as much as i do. I am out of Mayflower officially!!!! Loving every single one of you who had left an imprint in my life x

and wait.. one last part!!! ^_^ 

 A trip down huiyi's place to visit cutest winnie with annoyingz kevin!!! 
Had my hair dyed brown over at her house and all in all, an amazing day just rotting our butts off at her place :-) x

& omg that's so amazing if you've read till here!!!! Thank you so much for staying and reading this little space of mine!!! Rest well everyone, see you people pretty soon!!!! Love all of you xxxxx  

Saturday, November 16, 2013

lol why are all of you so selfish.. why are all of you so judgemental.. why is it so hard to even feel happy for a single day, what's wrong with everyone's words affecting me so easily. Try putting yourself in my shoes, how would you feel? why not you try sparing a thought for people? it is that difficult? is it that easy to just leave? why does it seems so easy for all of you to be acting like nothing has happened... i miss all of you.

but at least on a happier note, bkk trip with the bestieoon is tomorrow. can't wait to see her for four days straight. nothing can be better than this. :-)

Thursday, November 14, 2013

what if i said i need you

 DID I MENTION O LEVELS IS FUCKING OVER SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW I SURVIVED THIS TOUGH PERIOD 
AH WHATEVER I DID WOOOOHOOOOO



Throwback to today, 14november where it has been such a hectic day for me!!! but luckily my night ended so well with the two ladies above when we celebrated dilys's 16th. :-) and so glad yan is willing to hear me rant for nearly an hour while waiting for dilys to end her taekwando. A great ending for the day. :-)))))




happy glen with his present and cake ^_^

 throwback to my favourite group of assholes. ^_^
so... how do i go about saying this.. ok here it is. we've been planning for glen's birthday and finally all of us settled on the day i ended my o levels. so we tried all means and ways to get glen's ass out of his place and we met at the beautiful clarke quay. wanted to take a ride on the (bouncing ride. ok go and research idk what is it called haha) but got restraint la hor hahahaha ^_^ so we need to settle our grumbling stomachs before glen reached and the face he gave when he saw us all eating was... too hilarious. he was really shocked to see us i could say! and then we went back by the river to take some photos and have the birthday(belated) boy to blow his cake! and my bros were great, to think they can lift a fat crystal just by me placing my arms on their necks!!!! YAYYYZZZZZ. & thereafter we went to walk around and finally settled another round of food in angmokio before parting with them after some stupid actions we did outside jubilee HAHAHAHA. Now i know why they say your character is carved through the group of friends you hang out with. HAHAHAHAHAH :))))) happy 16th glen lim!! remember i will always accept you regardless how you look ok ^^

 throwback to one of the days.... i forgot when with my favourite bitchhhhhh
 we went for our job interview and yayyyzzzzz work is starting once december kicks in!! cant wait heehee. and we went to a place and i swear it has the most magnificent view ever. You can literally see the whole orchard........ TIAN AH. and tamade my self esteem when i am beside this girl....... *waves goodbye to it*

  throwback to my meeting with annoyingpeh after 1297453083267463298475864574256 years
and yeah, we were complaining how much we missed each other and we haven't been meeting for ages since busy crystal is forever so busy with the burden o levels. so once i had the short break in between my papers, we went out!!! though it's just a short while, doesn't it feels good to be seeing your best friend and hearing her rant whatever she needs to assure that she is happy? For me, i do. Hence it's all worthwhile i guess ;-) (cry leh fel cry ok)

throwback to now ok come back now don't go too backwards in my life k thanks 
Life has been ever so busy ever since o levels ended, and i am foreseeing much much more events lining up in my life already!!! can't wait for december to kick in, it's my favourite season, CHRISTMAS!!!! can you handle my excitement ahhhhhh can't wait for those parties and exchange of presents!!!! ^^ & most importantly, my bangkok trip on sunday with the best friend oon which both of us has been anticipating ever since this trip has been confirmed!!! WHO THE FUCK GETS THE OPPORTUNITY TO TRAVEL WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND AT THE AGE OF 16 YOU TELL ME HAHAHAHAAHAH. Can't wait to see this silly girl of mine who i have not been seeing ever since september sobzzzzzz :-((((((( 

" To see someone happy and bubbly most of the time to actually have so much pain deep down inside that she never dared, never ever dared to let out. If only someone could see the pain from her eyes, that will be great. At least she wouldn’t feel alone." [if you've been reading her blog, you would know where i extracted this from. :-) ] Just something i would love to share. How true can this get? Probably the happiest person around you has the saddest story to share. Be considerate, look around, look for the girl with the broken smile and ask if she's alright. It's not that hard to ask if someone's fine. & you never know, that would probably make their day. :-) 
Though days have been fun and all but somethings never fail to remind me how i am facing some problems that i know that can never be settled. I try so hard every single day to tell myself that life is good and who the fuck am i kidding that i am upset and all.. i just feel that i should be happy. I mean, i have the loveliest friends, family and whatsoever that i need. But.. that emptiness recently is causing so much pain. You really have no idea how much your words hurt. Tell me, i do not deserve all these do i. You are not letting it go, are you. Please don't. As much as i want to keep you by my side, i took a step back and ponder, haha who am i to hold you back. ah whatever, you know what's the best for you. Just tell me if ever you were to leave. but never tell me that i took you for granted. you know i never once did, and i will never do that. never would i.


maybe it's all too late. 

Goodnight kiddos it's 2am right now am so tired with all these bullshits sleep well people love you allllllz 



Thursday, November 7, 2013

Fucking bad night, as usual. Scrolled through the contact list, in hope of someone, and yet went back to my books. What to do? it's like in life, it's a must to give and you can't expect to receive anything back. Lol i merely need a breathe is that even so tough

Toughen up crystal

O levels please end soon. Really please.. I need my beauty sleep as soon as possible: -(

Monday, November 4, 2013

No matter how much i hate that i have to sleep with this heavy heart, i know i am more fortunate than alot more people out there. Just last night, one of my sec3 junior passed away.how fragile life can get? way much than anyone can think of. So whenever you are sad or really depressed, why not take the time, reflect on how you have not told your loved ones that you really love them? Why, instead of being sad and emo and all, take the chance to realise, the sadness that you are experiencing, can never be compared to the family memebers of those who lost their dearest kins. Up till this moment, what i had just said may just be mere bullshits to you bc i know, at the end of the day, it's hard to kick away a certain kind of sadness. It's like.. it's stick to you forever. it's like, you are numb to it. Or should i even put it in a sense that, you cant get rid of that numbness.

zzz it's hurting so fucking much right now i dont fucking deserve this
I thought this feeling had been gone, for good. I let it fade, and I thought it did. But who am I
kidding. It's still here. It's never going away. I hate it.

Always tell yourself, the people who matter dont mind, the people who mind, definitely dont matter.