I hope you would stay for long. You're so special 

kuai kuai update you kuai kuai see

 

Work has been slogging my energy off every single day but nevertheless, i love my work. it's always so entertaining even though it gets boring at times... ok so let's see.. ok my memory is bad i cant remember what i did for the past few days/weeks. but specially this day, which happened only like four days ago, the four of us finally picked out time to have a date with our dear mr vicknesh :-) OR IS IT JUST ME WHO'S SO BUSY THE THREE OF THEM BLAMED ME FOR THE SUPER LATE DINNER HAHAH LOVE YOU BABIES. anyway, it was so good seeing them again. It's not about the food or the amount of money spent or what, it's often the company that made everything so much better. The night ended so well with the live band at dempsey with our yumyum ben and jerry. Loving times like this where we are all so comfortable with each other's presence. & also a big thanks to mr vick who really said somethings that shook me up from the life i am currently leading. I admit at times we all get a little too wild but do know our limits, am so glad that we had such a good talk that night. A pity that we met up for only a short while :-( ohya!!!! dont you think chester was looking so good that night!!! with his radiant face and all!! and am so proud of my baobei fel who spent such a bomb on her body :-( 

and just yesterday, the sweetie pies evelyn and felicia came to surprised me at my workplace that totally took me aback.... up till now i guess it's only the two of them who know the exact location of my workplace. such sweet gesture of them, i know i cant get anymore fortunate to have them sticking around, always so ready to be there, always teaching me new things( but no naughty naughty ah) HAHAHAHA. can't wait for the 26th now!!!! 

Pray on the 19th i will see the 3 of them jumping with joy to me love you babies :-* 

Things haven't been going really well these few days but what else to do other than using my busy schedule to get all these thoughts out of my head? so finally on my off day today, after dont know how many million years, i got the chance to meet my dear linhui. :-( & that explains why my insta picture was like captioned today blue moon because it's really once in a blue moon thing that we meet!! But it's always so comfy with her around, telling her almost every single thing i can think of, and also she updating me on her life. Friends like these, you never never say no to them. Also visited my baobei tricia at her workplace where she ranted so much how tiring she is haha so annoying but jiayou darling!!!! :-* the day ended good with our sushi buffet that both of us have been craving ^_^

So many thoughts have been running in my mind but hell no, it's the season of happiness!!! so glad that christmas is around the corner and i can't wait to spend with my dearest!!! Hopefully my dearest clique will be able to make it for our date on christmas, it has been such a long time since the five of us have been together. Miss you all so much my darlings :-( 

A pity that we couldn't turn out the way we wanted to be. I can feel all these but i know probably at the end of the day you're just gonna use me as a substitution, which i definitely wouldn't want to. But i am falling like a quicksand, i can't get myself out of this shit situation that prolly you don't even know. Where have the real two of us been? Where we never fear to pour out everything to each other? Can't you feel the change? I hate how i unknowingly distance myself from you, and hate how you never tried to pull me back. It's just words and words and more words. where the fuck are your actions? fuck 

Now that it's just two more weeks to 2014, i can only say that 2013 is really a year full of lessons. Goodnight everybody, work's on again tomorrow. :-) 

Nearly a quarter after one, and missing you really badly. Definitely not the song but a true deep felt ouch i tried to suppress for the whole of this period. I did all i can to not let this feeling resurface but apparently it's so strong. Told myself to put you down after all the crap you did and reminding myself how a jerk you are but no, these memories aint leaving. They are staying, for real. 

And to receive such a huge dealt while in the meanwhile of the fucking painful process means a double or even triple burden. The pain increased, until you can literally feel your heart cringing. Yeah that's it, the feeling that can't be said but felt, the pain that comes to me every single night without fail. 

And knowing you are disappointing people unknowingly can't be any better either. Hope things could turn out for the better i surely need a trip down the beach, for the sea for the breathe i have been longing for ages. 

I have got so much to update onto this blog but...... 

I LOST MY PHONE. I am so so so upset......... Why cant my phone walk back or run back or scream for help when a stranger took it :-( 

So now it's kind of inconvenient for me to update thia blog without the necessary photos. Plus work has started about a week ago... Busy crystal cant get any much busier :-( but i promise to have a good post up asap!!!!!! Work is killing but i am glad colleagues are still quite nice haha keyword quite but aiya nvm lucky this is only a part time job!!!! 

So all those who have my contact number in your phone, kindly text or whatsapp me!!!!! I would love to have almost all my contacts back :-( 

 何必我们要假装没有爱过

I must be lying if i said my heart doesnt aches upon your leaving. But you aint even giving me a chance to ask you to stay. What can i do?

Here we go again,
With your mixed signals and my second thoughts.

It has been such a tiring day fighting with the emotions I can't do this

It's gonna be a very very long post!!!!!

 A proper blog post everybody!!! have you all missed me hahahaha

  

17-20 November 2013. 
so yeah, in case if you are not sure who's the girl above.... she's kimberly!!! one of my best friends :-) & we went to bangkok together!!! times cant be better during the four days whereby we seen each other every single day. this has never happened before we only met like once in a few months time actually haha but distance never fails to pull us closer. So glad to have a girl like her who's so willing to accept my ugly side. Bangkok trip had been especially fruitful and at the same time, meaningful for me. A trip that i really enjoyed and relaxed, putting everything down in sg. and furthermore, there's this handsome guy who helped me massage!!!! WA THAT MOMENT I REALLY WANT TO DABAO HIM BACK TO SINGAPORE I SWEAR. and kim was like showing that -_- face when i told her about it hahaha bitchy kim :-( and very quickly, four days passed and we officially reached sg at about 12plus on the 21st!!! & coincidentally, we had our prom both on the 21st so things were pretty rushed for the both of us!!! Ok that's it, all in all i had so much fun with my best friend. I am sure we will continue a long way, i had already foresee that ;-) 

PROM PROM PROM PROM PROM 21NOVEMBER

ok here it is, the most anticipated prom of the year!!!!! ^_^ & indeed, one of the best nights. :-) 
so firstly, me and fel crashed huiyi's place at about 2pm plus because fel was too excited in meeting winnie!!! & if you didnt know, Huiyi has been such a sweetie. I can literally say that she's my "maid-of-honour" for my prom!! she took care of me from head to toe, and not to forget, her sister also for helping me and fel for our makeups. :-) Our hairdos were by her wonderful hands!!! Am really so grateful to have her, cant imagine how i will look if it wasnt for her she's sucha sweetheart huh :) & damn we dragged until 615pm then we left her place!! Called a cab and we rushed down to the hotel which we had booked with the usuals!! & we were..... late hahahaha  

ok so this is how i look, how is it tell me guys!!!! :)

 my hairstylist + maid of honour *spam hearts

 

MY LAST MINUTE PROM DATE HAHAHA THIS STORY IS TOO LONG 

but yeah, at least when this best bro of mine saw me, he's like... " wa ok la tonight you are quite pretty. " HAHAHA GAY HIM AS USUAL BUT ON INSTA EVERYONE THOUGHT WE ARE TOGETHER HAHA BE HONOURED GAY BRO 

& not to mention, this bro of mine is really a great one. From the pinky promise he told me to promise him to the long long message he told me just to assure i am safe, thanks so much bro. I really appreciate you ok, despite i always guailan you haha this is how i show how much i cherish you la haobuhao!!! Thanks for walking in with me, hope you enjoyed equally as much as me!!!! :-)  

  oh and we went in to the prom venue with fel and glen where we met wenning ginn all those at the lobby!!! and this burdensome fel cant walk in her heels so as usual being the awesome best friend of her i changed my heels with her. so lucky that i am able to walk in it!!!! & we are seated according to classes.... -_- wtf is thiz i cant sit with my clique i am so upset :-(

 

am really sorry for the blurry photos!!!! i didnt bring a camera with me so all photos were taken from others!!! so anyway, wenrong walked me to find my clique so my goodness... hugged them so tightly when i saw them. it has really been so so so long i met them!!! & i swear they are all so beautiful that night. Indeed my ladies <3 A pity that i sat really far from them... it's like, four of them on one side then i am on the other far end fuckkkkkkzzzzzz TT but nevertheless, we kept on looking for each other but frankly speaking, everyone was so busy taking photos that we only took a few!! HAHAHAHAHA but i am sure these are enough to last a lifetime. :-) I hope you girls enjoyed the night equally as well as i did. They went home after prom and waaaaaaaa we really have to meet soon girls!!! 

Just a short note to you four  ♡

I know i havent been a really good friend because it always seem that i am so busy and i can't have ample time with the four of you. But you girls know what, you girls are always the first in my heart. The amount of memories and laughters you all have created will forever be etched on my mind. Regardless how busy we may be in the following months, please make sure all of you leave some time for our clique dates alright. I am so thankful to be clique with you girls, whereby all of us are so comfortable with each other. Things may be hard in the past but i am so glad we accepted each other flaws and are never afraid to be ugly in front of each other. I know we will be able to walk down a very long way because no people can ever replace the four of you. & by that, i really mean it. No one can ever replace you girls. I love the four of you, so dearly. 

about 8pm// 

So yeah we were all chased inside the ballroom and since we were told to sit with our class, my table mates were the usual!!! Ginn jerry wenning weizhen jayson kevin jioh randy warren zhenyuen and me! A pity that we forgot to take a table shot!!! :-( 

so as usual, the three bitches of mine was dragged by me to quickly take photos with me before the dishes arrived!!! oh did i mentioned, the food werent that good. & plus ah, we didnt really have time to enjoy them! also very quickly it was like the last dish... I DONT EVEN REMEMBER ME ENJOYING ONE DISH HAHA WHAT SHIT IS THIS HAHAHAHA

 

my favourite shot of the night ^ 

ok in case if you're wondering what the fuck we were doing... as usual, crazy things with the craziest girl soowenning. haha!! we wanted to do a jump shot but cb failed TT

 Look!!! Weren't my bitches so gorgeous that night? My goodness, indeed bitches because bitches always look so good hahaha (stereotyping a little bit la hor) & wa i guess they are like the only who are so willing to do crazy stuffs with me... HAHA SO HERE IT IS. after prom we wanted to smooch each other so i helped them to put on lipstick using mine's and this ignited everyone's interest to do the same thing!!! ENDED UP, ALMOST EVERYONE WAS KISSED HAHA I LOVE YOU GIRLS MAN YOU GIRLS ARE SO CRAZY AND SPORTY 

& in case you bitches dont know, you girls have been so great. From spending the two splendid years with me to the crazy things to the impromtu h2h talks @ dk what places, i cherish you girls so much!!! I mean, who can be so fortunate to gain such friends who are never afraid to do ugly things with me?!?! and you all also ah, leave some time for our yoga classes!!! FASTER LETS GO SIGN UP LA WALAO!!! Love you girls. :)

 4justice ^_^
So prom ended at about.. 11pm!!! and all started roaming around to take photos!!! A HUGE PITY THAT WE DIDNT HAD LIKE A CASUAL CLASS PHOTO AH DAMN BUT NEVERMIND HERE ARE SOME OF THE ONES THAT I HAVE!!!

ps i looked too fat here TT

Malcolm-

 Weiling-

 

kevin han most annoying bro but love you x 

 kimjioh and mr vick!!! a great thanks to this mr vick for the great prom we all enjoyed thorougly :)

 Hakim- 
I am sure i do not need to say much. Just a thank you from the bottommost of my heart. Indeed it was never easy for us but thanks so much, you will never be forgotten and remember what i said :-) Thank you!!!!

 ANNOYINGZZZZZZZZZ HUIMING

 And to this girl above, the one who i am always so comfortable in confiding, the one whom i know even though we have not talked for ages, we will still be as close as ever. I do not know what made us so close but it has been such a good two years with this girl. Those impromtu yet closest talks i had with you, those annoying moments when i always made you laugh and those moments when we both worked hard together, cry together, i will never forget them. You're really one of those whom i am so close in mayflower. & i am sure in time to come, we will be closer than ever my pretty girl. Leave some time to go out with me during the holidays and i am glad that you've trust in me just like i've for you. Stay happy my girl i love you. ♡

 

 

 

 A group of girls whom we seldom hang out but once we go out we never stop talking!!! & in many people eyes they all view us as a group of close friends so yeah, thanks for the memories too my dearies!!! See you girls really soon for a proper outing!!! All of you were so gorgeous man *spam hearts

Few photos that i've with me :-(

ivan- best dressed!!!! congrats bro!!! 

A brother of mine who's always so caring and never fail to be there for people. Thanks so much for taking the intiative to want to take a photo with me after saying i look good that night! You look as equally good as well. See you soon in cca camp!  

 asdfghjlsdjeiufwpotglrllfjefhruknefehfoiefm haha i cant even.... FOR THOSE WHO KNOW, HAHAHAHAHAHA ^_^

 

 Haikel, one of the most gentleman guy in my cohort!!! He looked so good that night. :-)

 The most annoying and guailan red hair deroy hahaha

 cutest handsome guy jj soh!!!

 The bro who's always so bitchy hehe love you claven x

 Chinkiat!! Doesn't he look good?!

 Most eyecatching oswaldo *.* 
Thanks for posting me up on your insta you handsome bitch!!!!

 Pretty melissa who grabbed away the best dressed that night. :-)

 Cutest angela who walked home with the award of ms bubbly. & i am sure many agree that the award suits her! HAHA ISNT IT ;)

 Pretty jiamin who look simple yet elegant that night. A bitch of mine who always annoys me haha but love you!!!

 Chanhong and weihong :)

 My long awaited photo with cheesefries!!!! (ps// missing out ivan) 
A pity that my clique went quite early and we didnt managed to take a photo with this group of guys who made our lower secondary period so wonderful. They say the first group of close friends you made will never be forgotten. So this implies to you guys. All the best in the future!!!!

 Ruanzhi :-)

 Kaiyung! :-)

 Xieling who look pretty good that night too :)

 beautiful claire and metilda :)

 weixiang who look so cute in his suspenders that night!!

 pretty karleng!! (ps// xuanliang's being a bitch haha)

 cute ruqing in her beautiful dress!!

 and the beautiful natasya!!  A pity that we didnt take a full body picture!! You're so gorgeous also nat!! <33

 Ryan who walked away with the mr babyface!!! haha so cute right he totally deserved the award!!!! ^_^ 
& he was like so upset when our photo turned out blurry... i was too :-( but he went like " haha at least your face is clear!!!" HAHA thanks for all these times bro!!! All the best to you :-) 

 

 Most annoying bitch xuanliang haha

But yeah, he looked good that night, doesnt he!!! & no matter what, thank you for the amazing past few months regardless whether it's with the usuals or just we two!! More makan trips to come!

 

oh and also, my table was very near to evelyn and chester so when i saw them i hugged them so tightly!!!!! It has been really long since i met the both of them. Still as bubbly and annoyingz as usual haha but i love them ;-) 

  look at my sexy darling evelyn chng!!! WHEN DO YOU ALL HAVE THE CHANCE TO SEE HER HALF NAKED?! ONLY THAT NIGHT HAHAHA SHES SO BEAUTIFUL!!! AS WELL AS FELICIA AND CHESTER MAN YOU PEOPLE LOOKED SO GOOOD ♡ i really thank the three of you who accepted me for who am i, always being there for me when i am at my lowest and for being always so ready to do things muahahaha you three are awesome fucks :-*

& look... what happened when everyone is high as fuck haha

 Many of them came to me asking me to help them put on lipstick because they wanna be like.. smooching everyone they see!! I SWEAR THIS IS LIKE THE BEST PART OF PROM, WHEN THOSE LEFT ARE THE ONES WE ARE REALLY CLOSE WITH. haha look at those lips stains on our face! THANKS AH THANKS TO THOSE WHO KISSED ME AND BE HONOURED IF I KISSED YOU HAHA 

& bidded to those teachers and whole lot of them at about 12am~

at about 12mn// 

Went up to the hotel room with the usuals and evelyn because evelyn and group of friends want to bring me and felicia out! So poor them had to wait for us for nearly an hour... i am so sorry guyzzzzzz!!!! so about 1230 me and fel went to meet evelyn chester andrienne darryl and jiaxuan! Had such an amazing time with them, really let my hair down i swear!!! ALL THOSE LAUGHTERS.. HAHA I CANT EVEN FORGET FELICIA EXPRESSION WHEN THAT INCIDENT HAPPENED TO HER

  

Meet andrienn the pretty girl!!! She's so friendly and really like the times we spent even though it's the first time we met, and we are talking as though we are old friends!! More times like these to come, to the whole lot of you!!! ^_^  Bidded goodbye to them and went back to the hotel with felicia!! HAHA FELICIA WAS SO FUNNY I CANT EVEN 

back in the hotel// 

Just a few photos to show the messy state of all of them haha!!! As usual, guys being guys. :-) Shan't eleaborate much into the night but let me tell you honestly, the night was really good. (even though many of them were so troublesome & the next morning was hell with just an hour of sleep at 8am) This concluded my prom so well, thanks to everyone in the hotel room, you know who you are!!! Rest well and take care people. :-) 

21st november 2013, one of the best nights ever. I can never ask for more. 

Thank you Mayflower Secondary School, memories with this school will never be forgotten. & to every single Mayflowerian in my cohort(or even juniors), thank you for being part of my secondary school life. Life is more colourful with you people. :-) 

Still remember when i first stepped into this unfamiliar surrounding in angmokio, i thought i will have a bad time in school. But who knows, i was totally wrong. I met my most wonderful friends here and the best teachers no one can ever ask for. What else can be better? As much as those bad memories are haunting, i am glad at least so many memories were made. These will all etched on my mind forever. For those whom i know will walk down a very long road with me, i thank you from the deepest of my heart for whatever you've done for me. As prom had ended so well, i am sure all of you had enjoyed equally as much as i do. I am out of Mayflower officially!!!! Loving every single one of you who had left an imprint in my life x ♡

and wait.. one last part!!! ^_^ 

 A trip down huiyi's place to visit cutest winnie with annoyingz kevin!!! 

Had my hair dyed brown over at her house and all in all, an amazing day just rotting our butts off at her place :-) x

& omg that's so amazing if you've read till here!!!! Thank you so much for staying and reading this little space of mine!!! Rest well everyone, see you people pretty soon!!!! Love all of you xxxxx