i dont want much.

perhaps you will never see this. never ever. but im feeling so down now. 
i dont know how can i help you. i was so afraid, i see his shadows in you. that flirtatious shadow.
i dont want much, i just want you to have actions. not only words. i know you've been working very hard for the past one month and im glad to know that. but still, i guess fault lies with me. i cant let myself adapt to you. our characters are like way much difference. but i acted normal. i think that's the best. and yes, if someday god breaks us apart, we gotta let him. but believe me like what i texted you, i will show you how i love you. i know i am your first and you might not know alot stuffs. but i cant possibly tell you how to, it's too weird. like , HAHA LOL. i dont wanna be so public for the time being due to my certain experiences. and yes, frankly speaking, i feel stress at times with you. you're a very nice guy, i dont wanna bring you down. not that i am bad , but i can foresee our future. i confirm you that thr will be no future for the both of us. so please make this a memorable one, for at least when i look back at this relationship, i will smile and not regret. for i know, the love between us was so strong. 


sincerely , i hope we could clear all those stupid small little stuffs . you get too hot at times. i dont like.