No words could describe how disappointed and sad i am now.

PLEASE. DONT TALK TO ME AS IF I OWE YOU ALOT. I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE WHO TALK TO ME IN SUCH MANNER WHEN I TALKED TO THEM NICELY. HEY, I DONT OWE YOU ANYTHING. GET THAT MOTHERFUCKING CLEAR. 

26 feb 2012. :D 

was really anticipating for this trip as clique hasnt been really going out ever since the start of 2012. Rochelle and Huiwen werent able to go with us, but it's okay. We four did had fun, especially with that siao eh tricia around. :) k session was especially great, with all of us singing  all our stress, sadness, happiness, excitement and everything else out. Almost cried at some songs, but nah, it's a happy occasion dudes! ;D

fucking met them @ 930am. OMG LIKE AN EARLY OK. and i am late for 15mins hohohoho then they charge me 15bucks for being late. HOSEHBO. :( 

we settled our breakfast then went to ssc. We walked down from sunplaza till ssc, LITERALLY WALKED DOWN. got bus dont want take, go walk down. SOOWENNING ALSO ANOTHER CUTE ONE. then went daiso, and shopped around while waiting for ktv to open @ 12pm. and we started spamming photos @ daiso. Told that siao eh cannot take she say " aiya can one la just dont kena catch by the people here " HAHAHA SUCKER. :) then we went up to splash park to slack. The girls played the seesaw, damn hilarious!!

and i started helping them to take their pictures against the white background! some quite beautiful but some really cmi la. but @ least i tried :DDDDD 

and we finally reached ktv. Sang our hearts out from 12-2. Literally, everything out. Really everything out. 

 not forgetting not to take some photos.. instead, i think we took alot alot photos inside! But a pity that the room was pretty small! & i think the rates are real cheap, like the cheapest ktv i ever seen. who wna go with me the next time!!

went off to bugis junction afterwards to hunt for wenning's school shoes! Very tiring as there are several bursted blisters on my feet and i swear they hurt like a motherfucking asshole. :( actually intending to go haji lane but nah, i think me chantalle cannot tahan the pain alr! Hence we went to have our late lunch @ food junction! Claven Kaiyung they all came to find us and chitchatted awhile. Parted with them ard after half an hour. I swear claven is mad. He spent a bomb on a pant. Just a pants. MADBRO. 


Then headed home afterwards as tricia's dad rushed her home. & chantalle legs really went off hence she headed home too. Accompanied them to yck and took train down to tpy to go devon's housewarming! Desiree pangsehed me. :( Hate her, haha, no la. love you alot k jiaxi!! ^_^ But on mrt there was a free show for us. An aunty with a super youngster, holding each other waists, and the aunty groping the guy butt. I guess the guy was so ashamed that hes actually wearing a shade on his face. Like, fucking xiaxuey man i swear!! WE FOUR LAUGHED LIKE MAD. TOTALLY LOUKUEY OURSELVES. :( but it's okay, i am always losing face when i am with my clique, cos they are mad. HAHA i think i am normal la uh. :) 


weekend why you passed so fast 
weekdays why you passed so slow
i hate this :(


it's sunday tomorrow. AND YEAH, HAPPYBIRTHDAY TO MALCOLM THEN. it's his birthday tmrw! ;D monday gonna be registering for IC but my photos are still not ready. I dont really wanna use the ones taken by the school. It sucks a big time man. :( Need have some really sibei super duper chio ic photo! HOHOHOHO. sad man, cant join joey huieng valerie felicia for outing tomorrow. always putting them aeroplane. sorry girls, i will really mi bu you all back someday. Love you all. :) shall be a good girl and stay home tmrw to finish up the physics' spa's wksht. oooooooooooooooooooooh, and wed jioh asked me ginn ning to go queensway to do the shirt. y u no go. damn. :( ok i know i am wrong. i cant like you. DONT BE STUPID CRYSTAL.


facebook is like taking forever to upload my another album of photos.


OHYA VIEW FACEBOOK FOR MORE PHOTOS TODAY. 


i love all of you out there. BE HAPPY PEOPLE! <3 muacks xoxo

yay it's a saturday!! :D 


Just a short post before i go out to meet tricia wenning and chantalle for our k session and town shopping! A pity that chanmeixuan and huiwen wouldnt be able to meet us. And maybe we are heading to meet the guys to bowl. Hard decision to make! And then meeting desiree @ town before heading to devon's place for his housewarming. so excited to meet des. It's like, finally i am able to meet her okay omg yayness!! 


A week in school passed, showing sign that CTs are over too. Totally worn out after CTs and decided to give myself a break. hence i gave school a miss on thursday, cca is sure gonna be very tiring. I knew it very well, and hence skipped school. But senior turned out to be real pissed as some things happened in my section. Gotta buck up. damn. :( Got back history and chem paper. Chem wasnt really well done as i got 27/50, which suck a big time. But was quite satisfied for history, although my bunch of besties lied to me that i just passed! And i really did worry for awhile but didnt give a damn cos at least i pass. Heard that he failed and i told huiwen orbiquack. HAHAHA WHY AM I THAT BAD, oops. :) 


School was especially fun ytd as me and tricia went for a bike ride after school using nick's and ivan's. & i swear nick bike really make my ass damn pain. The seat is damn hard! while ivan's bike is like, you needa use alot strength!! :( But it's okay, i had fun. HAD FUN TALKING TO TROLLEY THEO ALONE TOO. :) Literally digging all his secrets out. Hope he cheerup real soon!


AND HOW DA FUCK XUANLIANG KNOW MY BLOG. XUANLIANG WHEN YOU SEE THIS TELL ME. 


Move yourself tonight.


I am dreading the arrival of that day. I am really afraid you're being called hers if she really accepted you. I am afraid we wont have that chance anymore. I am afraid i am really falling for you. I am really afraid because i know, i shouldnt. Why is it that awkwardness arouses although we're nothing? I wanna make us something. 

Hectic week

CHEERIOS EVERYONE COMMON TEST IS OVER ! 

finally the first exam of an upper sec student is over. I wonder how will i fare, but definitely not carrying high hopes as i know i did screwed many papers up. whatever it is, i promise myself i will guarantee + chop work doubly hard for sa1, and prove to others. 

But just the day right before start of ca1 i went to chalet to celebrate sissy's birthday. and met with kimberly&peijing, like a finally.

LOVE JINGWEN MAN :)

BESTFRIEND, FOREVER THR. 

I WILL NEVER ABANDON YOU GIRLS. SOURCE OF MY HAPPINESS. 

They are the one i run to when i have problems, and they never seem to be so sick and tired of me. This is why although we didnt meet for like months, once we meet, we never stop our conversation. I love my two ladies above. :') 

Stayed back in school everyday this week to study. I just love the bunch of mates who always stayed back with me everyday! SO EFFING AWESOME YO DUDES :D Mom and sis are out of town and they are bringing back tons of things back from bangkok. and they bought me a cookiemonster thumbdrive which is limited edition. TELL ME HOW CAN I NOT LOVE THEM!! 

AND MY INDEX NO IS 1. 

okay i know i am random but the place where i am sitting during exams is super duper hot. But nevertheless, it's fun bcos soowenning & ginn are just beside me! :D yayness! and i kept on complaining to them about him. i swear if i can slap him i would definitely do it. please, dont change yourself. freaks me out. 

and ginn said to prepare 3 boxes of tissues to wipe our tears next week. DAMN. hopefully i dont fail CTs till too jialat. 

Loving my new class. 3 JUSTICE. ;D 

are we possible?

Hi my future boyfriend :)

45 THINGS A GIRL WANT, BUT WON’T ASK FOR:

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.

4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING ..
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say “I love her more than you”, deny it. Fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. It makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car - it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her - if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT - so just hug her.

24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US ..
26. Don’t lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants.
29. Text message or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her whenever she needs you, and even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER, BECAUSE IT’S IMPORTANT.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her lightly.

35. Don’t ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If she’s upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT ..
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED.
41. Call or text her at night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. Comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. Always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much you love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while you’re sitting on her.

FINALLY A WEEKEND. 

but common test is on monday. ALRIGHT KILL ME

Every week is passing so fast that i didnt even have the time to slow down and think of whats actually happening right now. everyday's a hectic but still, i am glad to have a superduper bunch of awesome mates. love you guys xoxo

dont treat me so nice. a weak girl who just broke up fell in love easily.

How's your valentine? :')

Hi all of you reading this, happy valentines day! <3 love you, xoxo

14feb was really well spent, even without you. 

Brought camera and polaroid today, and started spamming while on the way to school! :D hell loads of fun. Pe lessons, spam. But in class we did concentrate and didnt took any! But started again when we headed to canteen as mr fam wasnt here! 

sexy babes woohoo

TWO STRONG GIRLS, STANDING VERY STRONG. 

sexy wor!

3 QT PIES !

and we lied to chan mei xuan that we have no time to celebrate her birthday. BUT SORRY, WHERE TO FIND SUCH GOOD FRIENDS?! I MEAN, BEST FRIENDS :D 


so yeah as you can see, we celebrated rochelle's birthday right after school! Hope she enjoyed it because our plan didnt go really as smooth as we plan. AND I WAS SO TIRED AFTER EVERYTHING. while celebrating her birthday, LunchTimeConcert was going on also and hence the canteen was really in a hectic! but still, i hope chan understand and appreciate our thoughts! then we went around the school to take photos! WOOTS. it was awesome. :') 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANNIEMEIXUAN I LOVE YOU LIKE NOBODY ELSE 

polaroids taken!

PHOTOBOMB :( 

love you christine!

cute evelyn! LOVE YOU ALL LADIES

#CLIQUE MISSING OUT OF HUIWEN :( 

JUNJIE WHY YOU SO CUTE

NO.1 GUAILAN :D best mate!

text buddy :') !

Love you servant! :)

MY DEAR FELFEL PEH :D <3 

YUNXUAN! 

I LOVE YOU BITCH :) 

AM I THAT SHORT :(

why warren so cute!

GORDON! 

DEAREST NAT :D !

BUT CCA SPOILT THE WHOLE VALENTINE'S DAY MOOD. TOTAL MOOD SPOILER. :( hence i went to cca at a very late timing. kept slacking with tricia!

BEST JUNIOR#

AND TROLLEY THEO SAYS HE'S WILLING TO TAKE PHOTO WITH ME YAY! ;D 

trolley theo! ;D 

I KNOW I AM VERY CUTE! :D 

for the first time, i took alot photos with the new people! :D this is what i like about valentine's day the most! I just fucking love 14feb. It will definitely be etched on my mind, like forever. Although many cried on 14feb, i am sure they are all ready to let go. I love you all out there. :') 


i am really ready to let you go. i told you to let me go too. please. although this valentine's we didnt spend together, i am sure the valentine's day for the rest  of your life you will be happy when you found the right one. 


why did you said happy valentine's day to me. i know i shouldnt be feeling anything but to a weak girl who just broke up all these small things meant alot. 


i treasure all the photos we took although it was really less. and those texts after school, it really melt my heart. infactuation. crystal it's just infactuation. i know it's not real like. it's infactuation only. infactuation.


almost cried thou. but managed to gulped all the tears down. what for allowing the tears to roll down my cheeks? since i made this choice, regardless right or wrong, it's a path i chose to walk. maybe we will still meet after a few turns, or maybe we will never meet again. whatever it is, everything, regardless of you you you you or you, you all came to my mind. why am i such a failure, always not grabbing an opportunity that WAS right in front of me. stupid crystal. 


History common test was yesterday, right on valentine's day! Hopefully it will be fine. :) Physics common test coming right up on friday, following right after history! i feel no time to breathe, like everyday is just studies studies and studies! HELLO THATS SO NOT ME :( Next week is common test week and i have not even touch anything yet. It's like, i am not losing the confidence because everyday i am studying. It's like a matter of whether .. i can make it anot :( 


YES CRYSTAL YOU CAN DO IT