It has been a long time

I wanted to blog this on 23feb but i realised i didnt published it so here it is. :-)

Its nearly the last day of new year right now and i am spending it at kukup@malaysia!! Finally a getaway time for me i guess. Too much things had been happening that i cant really take a breather. What should i do? I ask myself that every single day before i go to bed because every single day, i just couldnt achieve my motto- to just do what makes me happy. People pull me down so easily. But all i return was just a smile. Life's such a chore at times like this. What to do? Suck it up and just be happy. Nobody really gives a big fuck to how you really feel. Dont shake your head or disagree to this because its a fact. Its the reality of this society. stay happy everyone ^^

Common test is just a week away.... Why is time passing so fast that i dont even realise feb is ending sigh all the best everyone!

Later that night, despite being very tired and all, i did not want to miss my steamboat session with my old friends. :-) although we see each other in school every single day, it just feel so different. It feels really good to actually sit down and eat together and with weixiang being a good man who help those princesses to take out the shells of thise prawns and ryan failed attempts to piggyback people ah all these are definitely worth my tiredness. :-) and these immature people played some games and we all headed back home @ quite a late timing due to school next day which totally dampens the whole party mood sigh :-( but all in all, i do admit i really had an enjoyable time together with this bunch of people whom i will never forget. :)

Now that i have been spending alot of time with my usual bunch of people, i really miss my bestfriends so much.... :-( especially kim, havent been seeing her since last year sigh. :( but i am so glad that despite that we are still so close together without having to hestitate to share our problems. And although i am just a street away from boh and xuan, we are all very busy to meet up too... Cant wait for good food together with my cooliolity hehehe ;-)

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28feb

I had such a fabulous time @ kukup because all i did was sit there and enjoy the fireworks. It was beyond beautiful. It was too splendid that i couldnt even close my mouth. A pity that my dearest two girls didnt went :-( miss them so so so much sigh

Its 10 more minutes to march. Feb just ended in a flash of light, which means another month closer to Os oh well. Have been getting less than 6 hours of sleep which in return caused my heavy eyebag and dark eye rings.... So ugly :-( and that with such a hectic schedule every single day, sometimes i really wonder why is life so tiring why is it me why all those whs just come out of nowhere and absolutely i have no answer for that. Now that commontest is next week and the fact that i have not yet even started revising, i am really shaking. Tired couldnt even describe how tired i am, prolly not even lethargic. Its even more than that sigh. Especially with syf coming up in less than a month, its really very stressful. Also because we are the elders in it, we do not want to ruin our reputation and the hardwork and effort of the past few generation just because of our laziness or lousy teamwork. I believe we can do it for i really love my cca, they are really like a big family! Especially times after practices i would always have dinner with my usual few bitches and having a great time together. That what always makes me anticipate about cca. Its about the people there. :-)

On a happy note, life has been pretty well due to the fact that everything is kept within myself :-) without people involving, less complications will be involved and such so definitely this is the best way. I am also glad to earn a very very good friend this year and jolly well the person knows who he or she is. :* and hopefully this remains for long. :-)

Other than that, i aint really expecting alot anymore this year other than just studies. Feel like a hardcore fucker loser when all i do is study and the stress accumulates and theres nothing i could do about it other than keep keep and keep, and having to rant at this little space of mine whom i guess no one really views it.. Which is good i guess ;) within these few months i felt that i really learnt alot. Although we dont say, its really obvious that somethings are just meant to be that way and you couldnt and shall not do much to change it for that may be the best already. Till then, may happiness fill you guys every single day :D

只要自己相信有雨过天晴的那一天，没什么是不可能的

It has been ages since i touched this site due to many happenings nowadays, especially its the new year season!! ^^ have been looking forward so excitedly for new year and finally, four days of holidays!!!!! new year was really great as i really enjoyed the togetherness of a family and such :-) went to couple of friends' place to collect angpows!! And special thanks to those who allowed me to go to their place, hahahaha! and yes, 初二 at glen's place was really great ^^ then skipped school on wednesday due to the ulcers that are currently trying to take over my life. Hurt like fuck i swear sigh :-( then studied with dearest boh at my place afterwards!
Thursday was valentines day, also known as chanmeixuan 大姐 birthday! A pity tht shes out of town and hence we couldnt celebrate for her! Still, happy belated birthday ok smoothies bitch! Still, a very good valentine spent with my few ladies :-) then finally lessons resumed on friday. I felt as though it has been years since i last touched books but actually it was just few days hahaha wtf lame. friday was reallly really hectic but i am glad i caught abtm thrice! and sister's persuading me to watch with her again........ Ah oh well :)
Its 120am right now on a monday morning and i have school tomorrow. I have got no idea why am i still awake.. Just cant seem to fall asleep, sigh. and i feel so procrastination mode nowadays.. Have been reaching home at this timing for the past few days and havent been touching books... hehe really festive season mood!!! ^^
Lol crystal its 130am really why aint you asleep yet i must be mad. somethings very wrong recently and i just cant explain it. But come to think of it, so what if i can? Dont bother too much about your problems, just sleep them off. :-)
A few visuals to enjoy :-) till then!

contented

are you hungry? :D hehe i had such a splendid saturday so far this year and it all thanks to that idiot lim. :') was on heels yesterday bc of my outfit and tricia looked damn short beside me and mwahahah i am finally on the same height with felicia when i met her last night. :) see look @ the height difference... i look like her mom sigh :-( 

went so many places to shop for hours straight and when we settled down at sweechoon we are so damn exhausted but still, photos matter the most so although we look like some tourists we didnt really care ohwell hahahaha. :) went all the way to little india for that idiot studs but we didnt manage to find so we had our dinner for nearly two hours. :) talked so much to her and am glad i have these girls by my side. really contented :') and that bitch lai and chan are outside today hope the two have fun <3 :) after parting with the idiot i went to meet my favourite felicia for sogurt as it has been really really long since we enjoyed the alone time of us two hehe. :) & special thanks to zhengwu who came down especially just for me late at night, where to find a friend like that? :) and finally i reached home at nearly 1am... what a day x 

^ i love you idiot lim, i am really glad you this bitch stayed for so long by my side, always supporting me and wiping off my tears whenever i am upset. :-) 

after a long chat with that idiot yesterday, it made me realised that its just parts and parcels of life that people come and go. we cant stop who wanna go or who wanna stay. we just do our part, our utmost best that we will not regret whenever we look back in our life. :) i am just glad and grateful to those who stayed and made a difference in my life, you know who you are. People say dont depend, dont rely, be on your own. But if you have such a great bunch of people whos willing to let you to depend on, what else more could you ask for? :) 

& it's sunday yet again. Time is passing by so quickly. I am missing so many people. I am feeling a way i shouldnt right now. I know you are just playing but i got so used to your playing that i dont see your name in my phone now, spamming me with useless messages, i am so not used. haha stupid idiot crystal 

Have a great week ahead everyone, stay happy! ^^ 

& ohya HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN HAN JUN SEO!!! 

Another hectic has passed, and it marks the start of february. A whole new month, meaning a month lesser to my Os. Looking back in january, it was such a tiring month. But i am sure it will be the most relaxing month and the upcoming ones will definitely be more stressed up. Right now i decided to give myself a day off from studying today and i cant wait to shop today yayyyyz :-)

And yes, huiyi finally came back and meet me. Had such a long talk with her and i am glad our friendship remained. :') aunty yap, all the best for your teritary education alright, always behind yr back :) x

And i hate to say, i got so affected by your small little actions. I thought i had stopped that but all along i was just lying to myself ohwell wake up crystal