you are beautiful.

LAST THURSDAY AND FRIDAY OF THE HOLIDAYS WERE SO WELL SPENT. ♥

Thursday was spent studying with the bitches in the Morning and then followed by bowling session in the afternoon. It was really a great day for we really did study and meanwhile enjoy ourselves. :) I hope the girls enjoyed the day equally as much as I did. And Joey said she owes us Popsicles because she can't make it for our trip and she's gonna repay us yay.  :-) bidded goodbye with the girls at about seven and went to study with t. All in all, a great day spent. Photos are actually in my comp and you know when laziness tends to get the better off me...... a few photos will do la hor: ) It was so fun to then rant to tricia through snapchat, thanks ah zhabor.  Love you. ♡

As for today(Friday), I locked myself in the room for the whole afternoon and so to reward myself, I went to chomp x2 with my darlings. As usual, a day with so much laughters tends to be the best. I am always so myself around the two of them. So blessed. Thank you girls. :-) I hope you two enjoyed yourselves for I really did.  ♥♥♥

Anyway I hope the photos are not jumbled up.... hehe cons of using blogger droid.  :-(

Now that Prelims is just three days away, and Os is just 114 days away, I have no more time to waste. Often they say to study and play hard but when it comes to playing, will you really play hard when you know you have such a major national examination waiting for you? I doubt anyone will. Now that I see everyone mugging so hard for their studies, it gives me a greater motivation to do well. All the best everyone!!! ^___^  all the best to the soccer guys who are having their outside match tomorrow!!!

I know things are not going well for us and no matter how are we going to turn out like, I am glad that you are here with me once. Thank you, for I have nothing else to lose anymore except for the memories of us. Regardless how much effort and love we are going to put in again, I know for sure we won't regain what we lost. 

School is starting soon, are you ready? :D

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This feeling strikes again. Yet again. It's always creeping behind me, i can't even shake it off.

No heart, don't bleed. No tears, stop flowing. I am so sick of all these. I always tell myself, the fundamentals of being happy is to ensure that others' happiness are placed before you. I always uphold this thinking of mine. I always ensure that people around me are happy. That's what makes me happy, even how bad the day may get. But sometimes, unintentionally you just got so tired. You want to give up so badly, the responsibilities on your shoulder to make people happy is just too huge. You can't handle all these. You broke down, you cry, you screamed so loudly seeking for refuge and yet no sound came out. That kind of pain, it's all within you. No one undertands, no one truly cares. You are doing so much for people, and yet no one is doing any of these to you. You're tired. But what to do? nothing. After crying you just suck it up and continue to be happy. You need to be happy, you can't be sad. You tried your hundred o one percent to keep everything in place but they seem so stubborn, they kept falling, they shattered into pieces. You are always there, alone, to pick up the pieces regardless how much it hurts to be pricked. Being happy is not a choice, it's the only option given.

Times like this.

On a slightly happier note, happy birthday momsie. I love you so much, hope you enjoyed your second honeymoon with pop and your mini celebration with us. I love all of you. :-)

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happy holidays kiddos!!!! ^__^ 

BUT NAH... WHATS HOLIDAYS IN MY 2013 DICTIONARY? NO SUCH WORD. or probably it actually means usual school time. wellz "perks" of being an O levels student.....

now that prelims1 is just about two weeks time... i feel so unprepared. T__T time flies, is all i can say. Unknowingly, half a year passed. How fast can that be!!! 

Anyway, i went to a carnival at st andrew cathedral a week ago and overall it was great! Times like this i felt like a bird wooooohooooo

but the next day i am back to studying... and sad to say i am spending nearly almost everyday with books i am sure even my books have my smell right now the time spent together is too much sigh hahaha

this girl below is too funny she said she misses me bc we havent been meeting yayz hehehe

and i am so happy to meet my two loves ^ a week back or so! feels so great to start your day having breakfast with them, updating each other on lives and laughing heartily away :)

Was out to study the whole day and decided to catch " now you see me" !!!! IT WAS FABULOUS EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH BY FAR THE BEST MOVIE MANZXC

I missed you, it has been long. 

As much as i want to keep this space cheery and joyful, nothing seems to be driving me to that. Instead, there are too many things that are holding me back. In times of need, where are you?

School's in at 10plus tomorrow early in the morning and it's already 4am right now. What can be worse than a pair of ugly eyebags? :-(

A very short yet warm chat few days ago just can't get off my mind. This person was looking at the badge mr vicknesh gave to my whole class and asked me, " what's congenial? why're you congenial?" And i replied," oh it means always smiling. Ain't i always doing it?!" And i gave this person a super big grin. And what this person replied really took me aback. This person said, " is it? You're just lying to yourself. You're just staying strong." I gave that person a super big grin again and said, " not at all" :-)))

It's really amazing how one can easily spot my weakness that i forbid anyone to actually know it. I find it extremely useless for people to know any of your weak spots. They end up doing nothing but using them to spite you, to hurt you more. Sometimes in life you just got to stay really strong and when i say strong, it really means not to get affected and whatsoever crap that could happen. For when life hits you down, you got to stand doubly strong.

Now i shall get back to my books and stop all these nonense in my head they're giving me too much headache. Have a great night ahead everyone. :-) one week of holidays just passed like this :-(

i shouldn't have even get into the picture. It's all too late, isn't it? Everything happened so abruptly.

ah fuck in the end who the fuck will be there for you? everyone turns out to be selfish, they only care for themselves and similarly, only want people to listen to them and not showing any sign of care for others. So tired of meeting people everyday. Ah damn.... Where's the old lively crystal.

SCHOOL..... T____T