No heart, don't bleed. No tears, stop flowing. I am so sick of all these. I always tell myself, the fundamentals of being happy is to ensure that others' happiness are placed before you. I always uphold this thinking of mine. I always ensure that people around me are happy. That's what makes me happy, even how bad the day may get. But sometimes, unintentionally you just got so tired. You want to give up so badly, the responsibilities on your shoulder to make people happy is just too huge. You can't handle all these. You broke down, you cry, you screamed so loudly seeking for refuge and yet no sound came out. That kind of pain, it's all within you. No one undertands, no one truly cares. You are doing so much for people, and yet no one is doing any of these to you. You're tired. But what to do? nothing. After crying you just suck it up and continue to be happy. You need to be happy, you can't be sad. You tried your hundred o one percent to keep everything in place but they seem so stubborn, they kept falling, they shattered into pieces. You are always there, alone, to pick up the pieces regardless how much it hurts to be pricked. Being happy is not a choice, it's the only option given.
Times like this.
On a slightly happier note, happy birthday momsie. I love you so much, hope you enjoyed your second honeymoon with pop and your mini celebration with us. I love all of you. :-)
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