So what do I say about us now? I know you are not going to be the right one and yet I am willing to give it a go. But no matter how much I am willing to, I just failed at the mention of her. Probably we were not meant to be like this. So much for being friends, so much for putting in this large amount of efforts, so much of my silly thinking.

They say you be the independent girl that needs no man. But you came into my life and now you're showing signs of leaving? I thought I could rely on you. As much as I hate to be dependent on someone, you're really one that I am dependent on. So why leave? We were fine, ain't we.

I hate to end the day like this. All were fine, I thought. Yeah, I thought. so tired when I can't even find words to express all these out to someone. You just end up keeping more and more and more.

As much as i can't wait to graduate from the school, a part of me knows that i can't bear to leave a place that has carved so much memories for me. There's just too much memories for me to bear. So much for saying i can't wait to graduate when i was back in lower secondary. Now that it's four more days to graduation day, i hope time could stop on our graduation day, giving us time to stop and really appreciate the four years spent in school. It's simpy marvellous.
My best four years in life, is coming to an end.
( to be continued)

I am totally clueless about how do I carry on from here.
Do I stay or do I leave
Then what about you?
Or you?
And you?

I just can't take it anymore

Don't leave me hanging, please. This is not the right time to do this to me. The overwhelming stress is already crazy so please I beg you

So upset. So so upset.
Nothing is going right.

It's not that you do not trust them, it's certainly not that you do not want to tell them. Sometimes, it's just that you can't find the right words to express yourself, or even better, using the right words to make them understand you. This is a part i am so bad at. Times like these when hugs will be the best. Not those hugs that will want to know what happened in return, but those hugs that are really out of care concern and love for me. Yes i am in need of those. It has been a tough period, i ought to take a break. But what's a break when it's only 46 days to o levels? I thought i could get over it pretty soon all by myself but it seems to me that i am quite a sucker for it, i thought it will be easy, just who am i kidding. Upon knowing what's your motive and all, i still gave you the green light to came in. There must be something wrong with me..

They say give yourself a break when you're tired. Only in this way will you be able to walk even further. Am i able to do that? This has been such a challenge.

On a side note, physics mcq was a killer. At least for me. I will make sure i do well for paper 2, this is the time that i prove thst i can. Head to bed soon if you are still reading this guys!!!!

// always feeling so bad to be filling here with so much negativity i am sorry guys haha i love all of you

Some visions that were supposed to be uploaded in my previous post. :-)

The past week has been such a heavy week for me as there have been so many birthdays going on!!! Plus all of them are all so close friends, i bidded goodbye to so much money but its ok, glad that at least they are happy with all the gifts and stuffs!!!!

And oh, it feels so good to be homed at 1pm on a monday. :))) now i cant wait for o levels to be over.... TT

A plus point to have you. :-)