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It feels really good to see you doing so well, it kind of healed my wound of ruining you so thoroughly to your bones. I am glad you found the courage to start loving others, i hope eventually i will be like you, finding the courage i ought to have to love others. It's good that we are of such relationships right now my friend, I have been waiting for this day, whereby i really put down the huge stone that you will never be healed. I was really regretful for what I have done but right now I love the way you smile so much. Thanks buddy. :-') 

It will be wasted if someday we never turn out well but whatever it is, i hope you are enjoying these moments as much as I do. I have learn my lessons of expecting too much, so definitely i am not bringing my hopes up. It's good enough to have such relationship with you, i would never dare to have anything lesser or more. It's really good this way, so let's just stay this way alright. You don't have to try, you don't have to change a single thing, I really like the way we are right now. :-") 

Last paper later on at 3pm, fucking can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

a break

A break from my study break before exams start officially on thursday:( Had my last tutorials for some of my modules and it's really saddening to part with some of my lecturers.... They are so bimbotic but so damn cute!!! Had a major project down with a small presentation and it was really nice for my IT module lecturer to prepare a note for us and it was even nicer when everyone in the class wrote something for each of us. All in all, school ended on quite a good note before exams start :-) 

pardon the cui faces here but i am missing trainings so much, missing those pains those aches, most importantly those girls!!!! totally can't wait for trainings to resume. Who knows i have developed such strong bond with these strong girls. <33333333

and what's life without a bit of fun and wildness right ;-) 
so in the midst of studying i met up with my bitches as you can see!!! We wanted to catch the fireworks but failed damn badly HAHAHA but whatever we still went to barrage and really had a damn good talk. :-) Thank you two!!! <3 even though i met someone unpleasant at the same day i was glad that didn't affect me much hiakhiakhiak 
Not forgetting that sunday night when i really had my stress danced off, thanks girls!!! see y'all soon again <3 

 

 i have zero idea why my best friend is so tall but other than thanking him endlessly for accepting my every side he has seen, i don't know what else to say. thank you you piece of shit for always hearing me out at stupid ungodly hours because you can feel i was literally feeling like shit and sorry for burdening you always!! however i am pretty sure you are like one of the rare few that has seen so many of my sides and don't worry i accept your ugly looks too ^_^  i am glad you stayed in my life and pls stay as long as you can, friends like me are hard to come by ok HAHAHA

 hi girls i dont know if you three will ever see this but reminiscing the past in school with y'all was like literally the best thing that happened recently. You girls made me realised how much i missed secondary school, how much i have seen the cost of real friendship, how much fun i have went through with all those people. thank you three for always bullshitting with me, listening to my nonsense and yet able to know what's wrong going in me. You girls are so amazing, cheers to many more years of friendship coming. :'-)

just next day i met up with my bunch of futsal girls finally!!! headed back to school first to look for Mr chen and some other teachers, as well as to stall time for the other girls to prepare for vick's arrival! Am happy to see vick so surprised but what i got in return of his surprise was a pull on my ear................ yeah guys that's my teacher way of treating me:( A great night with all of us catching up and deciding on our soccer game again! See you girls again soon :-)

They say people always leave after a period of time but i said no. Look who have stayed even after so many setbacks, so much unhappiness. Look who have accepted me from such a naive gullible girl to who I have become today. Look who have learn together with me in life, look who brought so much happiness and love and joy into my life. 

Once again I met the clique after a month plus..... FINALLY!!!! for our youngest's performance at NYPCO again!! So proud of everyone of y'all because you girls are doing all so well. :-) it's so saddening that every single time we spend time together, it just seems to pass so quickly.. and i always anticipate our next meet up once we part. Because you girls are special like that. 

Stepping into our 6th year of friendship soon, i thank god for the arrival of you girls. Thank you girls for staying in my life, proving me so wrong that everyone leaves. because of you girls, I know where to run to whenever obstacles hit me like shit. & I hope you girls can feel the love from me okie!! since i always annoy y'all with my nonsensical actions hehehehe 

totally worn out from whatever that have been happening, how much i always want to hold people back when they do not even have the intention to stay. I am already 17, i should start keeping those who make my life happier only. They say we live to be happy, so let's not allow any unhappiness to push us down. I mean, let's face it, we all have our griefs, some just know how to hide it better. 2014 has really been such an exciting year

i can't wait for the exams to be over, i have so many exciting upcoming plans with different group of people, but most importantly to see my favorite pillar of support soon xx

 

thank you

It has been a while and I thought i had suppressed those feelings all the way deep down to the bottom of my heart. But whenever i meet someone new, whenever people tried to come close to me, whenever people tried to tie me down again, you would popped out in my mind unknowingly. I did suppressed those feelings down, I did swear to never love you again. But at times when i smell your cologne in public, or i saw the slightest image of you, my heart skipped a beat. No matter what I still thank you for the impact you made in my life, i still wanna thank you for everything. Moments like this I missed how i had people by my side, how I had you by my side. Yet it's fine right now because i'm all left alone.  

have a great week ahead guys, i cant wait for tonight though:-)

Life

 

I saw how fragile life is, i saw how easily someone can just leave our side, i saw how heaven gained one more Angel. Looking back to old photos, i smiled a little, knowing that i can never ever find such friends anymore. How so many of us clicked, how those late slips from OM han could make my heart cringes so badly right now. Such noble man who made an impact in almost everyone lives in mayflower, he ought to be missed. Rest in peace, OM Han. My four years in mayflower will never turn out as well as it had if it's not for your constant advices, random jokes and most importantly your late slips!!! I hope everyone will be fine, at least we know he is in a better place right now for he was a man, full of honour and love. 

Hearing how the whole school was so depressed and solemn, how mr loo teared while making the news, how those teachers teared as well, broke my heart. They say life is unfair, the good ones are always taken first. Why not let's take this chance, and tell your loved ones, how much you love them? Stop hesistating, nobody knows what is going to happen tomorrow. 

Start cherishing life now.