How are your weekends everyone? I am glad mine passed well :) and whatsapp is making my life so happy right now haha see its all the small little things :-)

but i am sure regardless how happy things can get right now, all those shittty emotions will definitely come kicking in at night. despite how we dislike them, they just cant get away from our minds. we just gotta stay strong and smile. regardless how tough things can get, just smile. at least, people will think that you're a happy kid. smile everyone, be strong. :-) 

Thanks for all those texts, made my day. :') 

你觉得你很可怜吗？真可笑.
Fucking just hate how i always come across unappropriate contents i shouldnt read, always being able to link it to whats happening right now, always overthinking about things. Anyw, its the truth. I know whats going on. I know way too much than i should. I know i shouldnt be, but right here right now, i admit i know way too many things already. One by one, by linking all of them back together, it all made sense. Probably you dont. But i do. 一次又一次地看到不想看的东西，我都不能做什么，只能默默地接受，默默地想.

Wonderful day spent with mom and sisters, with a great breakfast treated by elder sissy at wild honey which is located @ mandarin gallery. It was such a posh place at orchard and the food in the restaurant... Wasnt that affordable, as for me la maybe. :) but still, the portion is really big! It can definitely last one for the whole day! Reached home at 12 midnight sharp after a whole day out.. So tiring. And it has been 3 hours since i reached home. I just cant force myself to sleep.... Whats happening :(

Probably heading out tomorrow and sunday..... Rejoice!!! And another wonderful thing... My whatsapp is working!! Like... After N years of me complaining and whining to people how lousy my phone is and now its proving to me that its still useful and it still loves me :-)

school ended yesterday with a great one i can say. Last day of term 4, school ended at 955am yet the usual bunch of us left school at 7pm. Had soccer, basketball, pizzas, talkings all those. We even played catching...... HAHAHA YOLO. :-) all in all, a great day with the usual bunch. ☺

And never did i know many do read my blog so ever if someday you supposed to pass by, look here. A big thank you to you. you really made me feel so special, even as a friend. thank you. so glad to have you.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYBODY!! ^^

life has been pretty mundane due to school not having any fun post exams activities... instead, they are having lessons on paper cutting, making garland and stuffs. it's too boring so got no choice but to skip school every two days or so :) 

Last day of school tomorrow, marking the end of secondary 3. i gotta admit, it's really a tough year this year. but not forgetting all the new friends i made, all the new memories i created with friends, and all the fun we had. next year we all got to work really hard for our upcoming O levels. Chinese Os is also in a week time or so. God bless me. 

its on replay.

Have you ever felt like you're so worthless? Have you ever felt like you're never good enough for anyone? Have you ever felt like you're always beaten down despite trying so umpteen times? I was so glad that i once felt i mattered to you. Remember how i was dumb enough to be breaking your hidden riddle in every single text to clear my own doubts i am having on my mind. Constantly telling myself that you are not thinking like how i am thinking of you and all i am thinking are just one sided. And that i should and i need to get out of this mess as soon as possible and not allowing myself to sink down even further more. to act like i dont know a single thing you did was such a hard chore. people kept on telling how bad you are and how i have that sense of achievement whenever we distance for a period of time. regardless of how things are screwed up now, thanks for once being such a shining star in my life. i may not be part of your life before but glad enough that you are in mine, period. Now that i realised people come and go, i am used to people leaving without saying. we need not to specially plead them to stay. if they do have the heart, i believe they will. i am so glad to have you telling me i am that special one in your heart. even if we are just friends, it matter so much to have someone telling me that. :') 

it has been a while. when things dont go right, i could only blame myself. who else but myself? blame it on my plain dumbness and naive on how i thought things were so easy. when did things become so complicated? even me myself dont know. 

'nuff of all those upsetting stuffs. ending this post with this gif that i hope it will make all to be happier tonight. :) 

have a great sunday ahead everyone. :')

Gave school a miss today again. Partly due to my laziness and also my eye infection. Another simple day lazing at home, watching movies and such. 

and i was so shocked to receive news from mom this morning. Rest in peace, my friend.

A memorable day.

12 october 2012, Happy Graduation Day. :-) 

It was a typical friday, i thought. It was the seniors who are graduating, it's not me so definitely it's gonna be just a typical friday for me. But i was wrong. I was kind of afraid that my emotions will take over me and i will cry a bucket or so due to all these super close seniors i have. I sure have a hard time letting them go. Imagine a year without them... guess i just gotta get use to it. It was a day that i felt so torturing as i gotta keep put that smile on for photos, a day that i told myself " people have to go, we gotta let them go. they will then have their best moments. " I am sure we had many wonderful moments to remember, and 12 october added on to our memory. :') 

Day went on with photos and a game of volleyball followed by dinner @ irvin's seafood house. :)  Cant help but to constantly laugh at the random moments i had in my mind. :-)

Happy graduation my lovely seniors. ^^

loving this photo ^ 

 and yes, linhui. :) 

it was such a bliss to know this girl. despite only being close around july, she's a really great friend and senior i earned this year. she's always there to ask if i am okay just bc of my tweets, she's always there to scold me like my mom, tease me by not giving me food like my sister and most importantly, listen to me like my best friend. thank you so much linhui. I will never forget you. Also, thank you for listening to me while on the way for our dinner. i hope things will work out in your side also, i believe they will. keep that smile on :) Keep in touch, and strive your best in O levels! :) love you always my dear. ^^

 <3 ^

 these two ah... :') ^ 

 I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT WE WERE LAUGHING ABOUT. ANYONE REMEMBERS? :O 

 ah, melissa. :) 

thank you for the memorable time you gave me. It was really fun taking photos with you and you are such a friendly girl. More were written on your "first impression" card! ^^ Do work hard and strive in your O levels! all the best <3 ;)

ALL IN ALL, WHAT ELSE MORE CAN I EXPECT ON A FRIDAY? this is the best friday in my whole life, i suppose. :) x 

i am sure you people are drooling!!!! CHEERS TO MY AWESOME PHOTOGRAPHY SKILLS. ^_^ i am getting so hungry right now at 1210 am bc of all these food urgh 

Again at irvin seafood house, many of us had a fun time laughing. i remembered when linhui was telling mel shes laughing her ass off, out of nowhere i said " imagine you are laughing and your ass really drops off... what if that happens. " and everyone burst out laughing again. it's really happy to see that people are happy bc of you. :') and then as usual, bill was footed by mr tan and mr vicknesh. After O levels really must give them a super big treat already!! :) the bill wasnt that... cheap. :/ 

Do well in your O levels, all the seniors above. We will definitely miss you people. :') 

AND YES HUIYI, I WILL MISS YOU. SO SO SO SO SO MUCH. 

decided to put her at the last of this post as i feel, she's really one great senior and friend that i gained this year. she's a really sweet girl. Despite a year different, we never hesitated in telling each other things, updating each other about life. I couldnt imagine life in school without her. Remember just a day before she graduate, i had lunch with her and i said " who can i rant to after you leave man... " and true enough to say, i will really miss her alot. Definitely gonna miss her wonderful personality, her beautiful smile and most importantly, her pair of listening ear for me. Thanks so much for this year huiyi. :') I hope things will get well for you. You have taught me so much this year, and i had indeed learnt alot from you. From studies to your perspectives of life and friends, i had really absorbed alot. Thank you so much for advising me on so many things in life, i truly appreciates that. Words just cant describe how lucky i think i am to have you.  Do strive and remember what you say, i want to see you shed, tears of joy. & be sure i will be there to share your happiness and joy. All the best miss yap. :) 

Already i got so emotionally unstable this year. Imagine next year, whereby it's my turn. How will that day turn out be? 

Happy graduation day 2012, everyone. :) 

typing this at 1220 am isnt easy, especially with my eye infection right now... & definitely i couldnt attend school tomorrow in this state. my eye is swollen.. damn ugly T_T May i get well tomorrow :( It was such a tiring day today. Totally drained out, once again. Heading to bed early. Goodnight everyone. 

Do you even know that i cherish you so much? You're so important to me. & i dont allow this to end our journey together. Strive on. :) x