It has been really long since i felt so hugged by warmth by this bunch of lovely girls. :)
cant deny that this outing is such a last minute plan as rochelle only agreed to come out in the morning. so four of us rushed and head out to enjoy the day with each other. our conversation lasted ever since we met. i admit the four of us didnt stop talking..... until we are on the super crowded bus that separated us. :( and as usual, we embarrassed ourselves in public. Nuisance, as usual. What to do? when we have ms chantalle and ms tricia with us, we are always loud. ;) Headed to haji and then bugis afterwards. Roamed around the whole bugis, omg it feel like ages since i went there. so many things changed.. but the trends are still about the same. then those girls keep complain they are hungry! so around 6plus we went to prata house for dinner. dinner was great with the great company, all things said were kept within the table. haha these girls. ^^ and headed to udders... BORING. :( went home around 9plus which is quite early bc it has been really long since i headed out so parents didnt really care about me... so carefree omg madness. & to be frank, it was really a good time with them. :) thanks girls for the day. :')
Heading out with another bunch of lovely girls tomorrow. And followed by monday with my three lovelies, :-) Life cant get any better with all of them around. Everytime whenever i am feeling down, feeling that no one is there for me, i always give a self pat on my shoulder, telling myself that i shouldnt be feeling this way. These ladies are always there for me, what more can i ask for? :) I am really glad that they are here. Despite things being tough recently, its always better to fight alone than to trouble anyone else. Many are concern, but i am sure when it come to settling your own feelings and troubles, it's still better being alone. My life's good, i should be glad. I shouldnt be allowing those small little things to affect me. Whats important now is studies. Studies is always the top priority.
Had a kind of study date with a great senior recently but it turned out to be a really loooooooooooong talking session. Shes graduating next friday, along with other seniors. How fast can this get?.. Imagine in just another 365 days, it's our turn. In a blink of eye, secondary 4 life is coming to us in just few months. How can we not buck up? Looking at them graduating, i am sure gonna miss them. Despite just gotten close to her recently, she's a really nice girl. I learnt so much from her. Really so so so much. Everytime feeling down, i will always her saying " Really dont think too much. It's all the overthinking that kills you. " I cant deny that this is really so damn true. People tend to think so much that they neglected who really care for them. Many care, just that they dont care. Even if they dont show, by a way or two, they will definitely show. we need to be happy by just all these small little things. we need to appreciate what small little things others had done for us. Definitely there are times when we feel so useless, so down, so depressing, but tend to think the good side. To every problem, there's a solution. I always believe in this. To me, i believe in treating others the way better than people treat me. My mom taught me, " 即使人家对你不好，只要你对他们好，终有一天他们会对你好。“ As long as i am contented with how i treat others, i believe they will appreciate me. Despite at times feeling unappreciated to a great extent, i always tell myself not to feel this way as this wont get me anywhere. Why not instead of this, i think the positive side and be happy? This will make me even happier and less depressed, isnt this better? :)
If there's one thing that i am proud of, I am sure it's humans. They taught me so many things, so much to an extent that words cant describe. We tend to struggle among our own feelings, constantly trying to figure out a conclusion that will work best for yourself and your feelings that you hurt others without knowing. Sometimes i just hate myself for being such a weakling, i hate myself for being weak and not strong enough to tell people how i am feeling, i hate how i got beaten down everytime i tried to be strong. I just hate how sensitive my feelings can get. Its so killing at times. Really, its killing within me so badly. Sometimes like when you feel like a constant war between your heart and your mind, thinking whether you should follow your heart or your mind, trying so hard and yet nothing seems to be going the right way. I cant deny that i am one that sucks at telling others how i feel. I just cant stand how people need to share my trouble. It's sucha burden. But i love to share others. I love to hear others rant. I just feel so... trusted. Really love that feeling. :') & to be honest, this is what keeps me going. I just love this feeling. Thanks to those.. you know who you're. Through humans, i feel that i learn something new every single day. literally every single day. as days passed, you see whos true, whos not. you know whos lying, whos not. you know whos hurting you, you know who are constantly there for you. you see those friendly people with a mask on their faces and you need to be really careful when meeting them. always be thankful for what you have, thats what i can only say. dont be scared to be happy. :)
Its always nights like this that i will start thinking so much, reflecting about life, thinking what i should have done instead. Instead of dwelling of unnecessary things, why not just make the best out of life? Life is too short for us to be constant regretting. :)
I love everyone, especially my family. Have a great day ahead everyone. :-)
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