Fuck all these bullshit emotions that only come kicking in during night time. Cant i have a day that i can go to sleep happily? Is it really that difficult to ask for?
No wonder twin really got telepathy with me. Even she's thinking what i am thinking. Just like what she said, why is it so tough for people to stay? Is it really that simple to come and go as and when you like it? Am i that boring, am i that mundane? I hate how i am always the first few to know something but always the last to reveal. In the end, this caused so much unnecessary emotions kicking in. All these sudden surge of strong emotios i cant kill them they are way too powerful. I hate how i succumb to them so easily.
And all i wanted was a pair of listening ears. So hard, so difficult.
But still, a big thank hug to those who cared. :") rest well guys, it's monday!

So glad that my friday ended on the right note. I'm really glad to have you with me.

I AM SO GONNA DIE TOMORROW. It's exactly 106am in the morning and i have school tomorrow which means i have to wake up at 6 in the morning. It must be the kopi o kosong's fault. I thought i could rely on it for a longer night, BUT NOT THIS LONG. ah asdfghjkl hate insonmia!!! :-( i will always feel hungry when i cant sleep and sleeping with an empty stomach often angers me >:(

Anyway, this is already the fourth week of term 2 and i am left with apprx 6 more months to my major Os. Though constantly reminding myself to stay focus, at times i just tend to drift away unintentionally.... HAHA :) & syf is on the 24th, next wednesday. We are the last performing art group to be out and to be frank, the last one always tends to be the most stressed out because all eyes are on you. But whatever it is, this is gonna be my last time playing together as a wonderful orchestra with my favourite cca mates. I know for sure nothing can describe my misses for them when i had stepped down.

Jiayou everyone!! ^____^

Problems after problems.. When will they end? 每次都有苦说不出，谁又会明白? Today just seems to be the toughest day in 2013. Never did i felt so helpless and yet no one to seek help from. I had no choice but to carry on. i thought i can do it, i thought i can let it go. But all these prove me wrong. I am just dreaming. Wake the fuck up crystal its your important year. Sometimes i just drown myself in the silence around me, slowly getting used to it. HAHA whats wrong with you crystal.

On a happier note, i felt much better after meeting my dear jiaying and crying it all out to her. Sometimes its not about whether you trust that particular person or whatsoever, its just that you cant seem to find the right word. yes this.

It really suck to have no one by your side. Everyone says " ah i will be here for you, just that few numbers away." but when its really obvious that you're sad yet you cant seem to express yourself, that feeling.... Fuck. its horrid. i cant seem to stop myself from doing all these, i just cant.... just why problems kick in when its my important year...
Ok nvm back to daily routine tmr already goodnight guys have a good week ahead all of you are great!! Love yourself more everyone, :-) x
Just a few visuals to keep everyone hip up! Stay happy everyone life's short, live it well!! :) and sometimes i really dont understand the way people tweet... Is it just me or what haha

Fuck man i have never been accused so badly before...... 这感觉真的好难受.... I hate to cry to sleep but i am doing so often.... Haha useless me.

Well today marks the third day of april and i am already three quarter dying.. However, no!!! Gonna persevere for the sake of my future!! ( but i cant deny everyday seems so tough )
It sucks so much to be the only one giving. No one appreciated, or should i say, no one is appreciating. It just got to a point whereby i feel its so normal to give without return. I'm actually quite used to that. Disappointments and sadness basically filled me up at the end of every single day despite happiness was the one that started the day. Hate myself for overthinking at times but everyone's actions showing it. What can i do?
A dinner with my loved ones may be the best to cure all these. Till then x