what if i said i need you

 DID I MENTION O LEVELS IS FUCKING OVER SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW I SURVIVED THIS TOUGH PERIOD 
AH WHATEVER I DID WOOOOHOOOOO

Throwback to today, 14november where it has been such a hectic day for me!!! but luckily my night ended so well with the two ladies above when we celebrated dilys's 16th. :-) and so glad yan is willing to hear me rant for nearly an hour while waiting for dilys to end her taekwando. A great ending for the day. :-)))))

happy glen with his present and cake ^_^

 throwback to my favourite group of assholes. ^_^
so... how do i go about saying this.. ok here it is. we've been planning for glen's birthday and finally all of us settled on the day i ended my o levels. so we tried all means and ways to get glen's ass out of his place and we met at the beautiful clarke quay. wanted to take a ride on the (bouncing ride. ok go and research idk what is it called haha) but got restraint la hor hahahaha ^_^ so we need to settle our grumbling stomachs before glen reached and the face he gave when he saw us all eating was... too hilarious. he was really shocked to see us i could say! and then we went back by the river to take some photos and have the birthday(belated) boy to blow his cake! and my bros were great, to think they can lift a fat crystal just by me placing my arms on their necks!!!! YAYYYZZZZZ. & thereafter we went to walk around and finally settled another round of food in angmokio before parting with them after some stupid actions we did outside jubilee HAHAHAHA. Now i know why they say your character is carved through the group of friends you hang out with. HAHAHAHAHAH :))))) happy 16th glen lim!! remember i will always accept you regardless how you look ok ^^

 throwback to one of the days.... i forgot when with my favourite bitchhhhhh
 we went for our job interview and yayyyzzzzz work is starting once december kicks in!! cant wait heehee. and we went to a place and i swear it has the most magnificent view ever. You can literally see the whole orchard........ TIAN AH. and tamade my self esteem when i am beside this girl....... *waves goodbye to it*

  throwback to my meeting with annoyingpeh after 1297453083267463298475864574256 years
and yeah, we were complaining how much we missed each other and we haven't been meeting for ages since busy crystal is forever so busy with the burden o levels. so once i had the short break in between my papers, we went out!!! though it's just a short while, doesn't it feels good to be seeing your best friend and hearing her rant whatever she needs to assure that she is happy? For me, i do. Hence it's all worthwhile i guess ;-) (cry leh fel cry ok)

throwback to now ok come back now don't go too backwards in my life k thanks 
Life has been ever so busy ever since o levels ended, and i am foreseeing much much more events lining up in my life already!!! can't wait for december to kick in, it's my favourite season, CHRISTMAS!!!! can you handle my excitement ahhhhhh can't wait for those parties and exchange of presents!!!! ^^ & most importantly, my bangkok trip on sunday with the best friend oon which both of us has been anticipating ever since this trip has been confirmed!!! WHO THE FUCK GETS THE OPPORTUNITY TO TRAVEL WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND AT THE AGE OF 16 YOU TELL ME HAHAHAHAAHAH. Can't wait to see this silly girl of mine who i have not been seeing ever since september sobzzzzzz :-((((((( 

" To see someone happy and bubbly most of the time to actually have so much pain deep down inside that she never dared, never ever dared to let out. If only someone could see the pain from her eyes, that will be great. At least she wouldn’t feel alone." [if you've been reading her blog, you would know where i extracted this from. :-) ] Just something i would love to share. How true can this get? Probably the happiest person around you has the saddest story to share. Be considerate, look around, look for the girl with the broken smile and ask if she's alright. It's not that hard to ask if someone's fine. & you never know, that would probably make their day. :-) 
Though days have been fun and all but somethings never fail to remind me how i am facing some problems that i know that can never be settled. I try so hard every single day to tell myself that life is good and who the fuck am i kidding that i am upset and all.. i just feel that i should be happy. I mean, i have the loveliest friends, family and whatsoever that i need. But.. that emptiness recently is causing so much pain. You really have no idea how much your words hurt. Tell me, i do not deserve all these do i. You are not letting it go, are you. Please don't. As much as i want to keep you by my side, i took a step back and ponder, haha who am i to hold you back. ah whatever, you know what's the best for you. Just tell me if ever you were to leave. but never tell me that i took you for granted. you know i never once did, and i will never do that. never would i.

maybe it's all too late. 

Goodnight kiddos it's 2am right now am so tired with all these bullshits sleep well people love you allllllz