Nights like these i really would love to hear from you.

Am i not even worth a few minutes of your time? i just want an explanation and you may take your leave. But please, don't leave me hanging anymore. Can you come back to me, just please i have lost all my pillars of support at one go, who can i rely on right now? Even if you tell me the reason you left was because you are sick of my nonsense, go ahead. & yes, that's how much i am craving for your explanation. At least when i fall, i learn. Don't just make me fall without a reason. Your wound will never heal on me. Fucking useless piece of crap crystal well done to you 

What the fuck is a vulnerable crystal i hate to see this side of me resurfacing but i'm really clueless on how do i continue from this point of time there's just too much to even handle right now

Still, i thank mom for listening to my rants, she never fails to make me feel better, she never fails to teach me how to love. love you mummy