You are beautiful ❤: Why?

It has been really long since i stepped onto this space but i love how private this can be right now. :-) so here i am, back for some updates!! BUT REALLY SORRY IF THIS POST IS A LITTLE BIT UPSETTING

As much as i am enjoying my time with you right now, i couldn't deny how worried I am for us. I have learnt how to love through the hard way and certainly i see the sincerity in you which is persuading me to go on.

I wish to love you better but

I am so afraid, there's this fear in me which is holding me back so badly that i wanna leave. I want the best for you, i want the change in you to be seen by everyone else, not just me. I was taught how to love, and i am definitely disallowing myself to hurt you. It has always been a two-way love but it's inflicting so much pain right now.. Why?

For the past few months it has been a struggle between several things. The constant comparison in thinking and behaviours, i shoved them aside because honestly you are so different. We started off so differently, and you make me so proud when i tell others about you. And thats what makes you special. I want the genuine you to face the world, and not what is happening right now- you avoiding from every single thing.

You are not just a replacement, my dear.

April has been a tough month, or a relatively harder month for me to sail through because of all the events that are happening concurrently. I know it clearly that all are within my qualms but who am i kidding when the only thing i always wanted to do at the end of the day is to hit my pillow and vent my emotions?

I need to find myself again.

On a side note, taiwan trip was meant to be a relaxing vacation but i just cant seem to put my tasks down in singapore..

Some visuals for you guys!!!!