Because i admit, you can easily affect me if you are someone close to me. it's really a simple job bc i put so many things as my priority. i just couldnt bear. i couldnt imagine what if you were gone. i couldnt continue with others on a conversation about you. there's so many i couldnts. 

Chinese Os is in 2 days time. All the best to everyone i feel so not prepared but hey confidence is the key. :-)