Classic

They say, it will probably not matter in a year's time, in ten years' time, but all I have to say is it hurts so much now because it matters, right now at this moment. 
They say,  don't spend your time on something that won't go anywhere, but all I have to say is no matter how many times I told myself I am so done with your shit, I find myself trying again. 
They say, I will get over this, for this is only a heavy storm in my life, but all I have to say is this storm will probably be the most memorable one, the one I love the most.

They told me I had shed enough tears, they told me not to get hurt over and over again over the same old thing. 
They told me to start looking around for those who stayed, for those who want to stay with me. 
They told me there's this someone who's always there, yet I turned blind whenever I see him. I know about this him, my guilt eats me up whenever I typed my password for somethings. I saw how I ruined such a great man, I saw how I am getting ruined right now. 
They told me to pick myself up, they told me to stop drowning in such fantasized thoughts.

I tried, and I acknowledged the fact that I have so many wonderful souls around me who are willing to fix and accompany me through this period of time. 
I tried, and I love every single one of you who tried your very best to stay by me even though I pushed almost everyone away.
I tried to have things to remain the exact same way, even though at times i fail miserably, I know I still have some shoulders to rely on. I know who is supporting right behind me.

I am so thankful. 
I am so thankful, for you. 
I am so thankful, for you, the one who I am so miserably comfortable with.
I am so thankful for you, the one who I am so miserably comfortable with, the one who I can never leave, never ever. 

I am really thankful for my happy pills, they are literally my strikes of sunshine in this period of dull grey clouds. Thank you people so much, I am so blessed. :-")