happy days happy life

To be honest i have zero idea what happened for the past two weeks because it's either filled with so many projects that i just drown myself in all these assignments or i was really busy working for my boss as she has just given birth to a really chubchub baby!!!!! ^_^ other than that it's just school cca school cca sleep, trying my very best to sleep as i was having really bad time trying to sleep due to my assignments.. and yes, my school is that bad. :-( 

Nevertheless, i squeezed out time to meet my four precious no matter how busy i get for they are just like my shelter, really blessed. :-) Thank you girls even though you all are constantly so annoying!!! Missing you all already :( 

The past one week was literally like shit from what i remembered, all the way back from Monday. I was trying to badly to get a breather from everything i was doing, but it was so tough, it was like literally impossible. Time seems to not wait for me, i needed time, i wanted time to slow down. whatever it is, i am glad it's sunday right now and I am really looking forward to a brand new week!! AND OHYA I AM SO GLAD THERE'S LLAOLLAO IN SP, IT'S SUCH A HAPPINESS NOW I WANT TO STUDY IN SP PLS

To be juggling so many things at once is such a chore, I always like to be busy, I like the feeling of being able to sleep once my head touches my pillow, I like how is it like to not overthink at night. But this one whole week was hell, everything i dislike all came back at once, I saw how vulnerable i really was, and I hate that. I hate how now the slightest thing can trigger my deepest emotion, i hate how i over think every single moment this week. It was such a shitty week, i hope everything will come to an end soon, please. My heart aches so badly but i know it's a blessing in disguise, and i could not have anyone to blame except for myself. I know it's the end but no way i will put an end to all these memories. No matter how long my heart continue to ache, i know nothing will ever change. I am happier that you are happier, I am happier that you taught me such a valuable lesson in life. It's really time for me to start caring for those who are constantly by my side, and let go of those who need to go, regardless whether it's intended or not. I know I will be happier, i need to stop feeling so drained, i am the only one who can save myself. Bad days doesn't mean a bad life, i get that. Chin up crystal. :-) 

If you step into my life just to show how gullible and naive i am, then please, fuck off. No point in all those promises when all you can do is just talk. Your words are so cheap, your talks are really pointless, just fucking leave me alone.